[quote=camper]thank you so much for the advice, i'm starting to realize i'm not the only lne going thru this, i'm definitely seeking help[/quote]
I think in communities like this there is a lot more room than one would expect to talk to people experiencing similar things. The best starting point is 100% to talk to friends or peers like those on the website, as well as previously mentioned services available in school / uni and whatnot.