Recently I had an old manager / roommate overdose and died yesterday. He was a manager at a pretty well established mom and pop BBQ chain here in town, always assumed he was just a regular stoner, but apparently he needed relief beyond what was considered a reasonable risk. I stepped away from all that stuff, personally it’s been hard especially when your someone like me who’s more emotionally charged, I end up shooting from the hip instead of sitting on my own words.

I just feel like saying it, but I know it’s hard with drugs and shit, it’s always around, drinking is also such a major thing, I’ve gone so many years with that crap in my life and it’s never done me any good. I think we can all agree, a lot of gamers in our scene would perform better if they stayed away from that crap.

Long run mental health issues on top of everything with substance abuse is just not worth it.
Hopefully you guys get what I’m saying and maybe a couple gamers, even half a handful will get what I mean.
When a game runs this long you’re gunna run into some death, but honestly. I’d rather joke about being an old man fraggin 17 year olds and passing on naturally.

Whatever happens on your path, don’t cut the dreads.

me personally, I see the growth in scout and soldier, but fucking god, how long do I get to see loch and load demo roll that shit on pure aim and just fucking destroy this shit

I cant wait to see how tight some of these new gen gamers fuck up you nerds, god help me I can keep up on the playback shit, dude we get to see the 4th gen come into action on this shit and its gunna be wicked!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really need to step away, at least from tftv, and sorry I'm stepping away from comp, if I can do something for prolander, cool beans. But other then that, this shit needs some serious work. Hope some of you make it chill for that fresh crop we got interested. Gotta have the new comers interested right?!

I'm literally drawing a thing that might pay for the view finder for the camera I'm building and I'm im almost out of money because I bought a new engine for my car and dz creeper knows I'm a nerd and I have the best interests please god will a stranger buy a nerd a hotdog or something filling god help me I'm just a nerd on the internet run on sentence.gif

I put All the right cards, I made sure Kobe rised, and his storm is only withdrawn, his hand is steady, his crowd is of few an steady brow under the crow, the storm, the thunder storm, the crowd shall rise under Koby, he had not defeated B4nny the washed up suckler, the born abuser, the son of the upcommer, this bitch, that only carried, this fucking waste of a day, this negative bitch holding the day, at the very nature of such few, the Future, the crew, the behind scenes hand that pushes those of us at hand, we know now that the old helm is dead, shall we rest instead, let the title flex and said, "My the Future bless this head, may the young rest and be blessed."

Im about 3 8 percent beers into this, but deal is this, if my mates get me to sober up at the mic and we make this some sorta legendary tale, kobe, you better fucking win invite again and just shit on these knuckle heads, becasue I cant do this forum shit anymore, half these nerds are fucking under 20 and huff paint and think haff the effort isnt behind this shit anymore. Also, I'm serious that I'm not posting anymore, if one of you fucking nerds see me with a godddamn half a body of camera gear over my shoulder lookin meak, if you call me Future you owe me a burger and goddamn full sized fry with dip of some sorts or so help me my broke ass is gunna get meek and pass out on that goddamn dirty ass gamer floor

Because you spoke now, they call me Future because I expected your deprecate,

Who did I step forward as a ORG, who did I handle, the best of the new generation, who may I ask iS resting, who is taking the nap among you weak mother fuckers, his name is what, his name is KOBE

hey kobe, did doozer do anything that made it worth the time invested? what was his flip?

I promise, I had a larger impact on some heavier players then this fake piece of dry cunt shit

start talking sharp dry ass lip fucking shit talker

I am going to bed. I aleady made a prayer to Mig, you guys dont know how important ultimatums are.

thats right you little shit, get pissed, as long as you give these forum shit shacks a hard time, call me what you wish, just go for gold, friendo.

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bring back that old edit of you getting mad about my steam profile comment
that was more un-settling then whatever is worth reading now

Edit: and for the record, this interaction is exactly the thing we gotta look past and go, "what was my part in it?"

Some of you gamers gunna get old and start seeing the same shit I'm seeing, hopefully some of you sooner then later. I'm gunna make some scrambled eggs for dinner on this shit ass micro budget I got because I wanna save for this darn equipment, see you at lan(s)? Also, dont get mad at the cost of digipacks, that shit isnt cheap. the 3-4 panel ones are pretty awesome, would prefer to have at least some group photos of you nerds on the final product.

Sorry for making the thread, sorry I gotta start stepping away, I will say, dont judge a person until you meet them in person, the keyboard will never represent the gamer truely. <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmyKp0DJzKg

Its gotten bad. Sexual abuse. Came out in public, it was OK. But online, it was a different animal. Thats kinda the issue.

Had about 2 other people ask me to make it a thread, because, maybe we could get something out of it. I can answer a few questions, but its out of the act, like, they want me to do something that isn't permanent.I feel like, most of you judge me so hard on my best intentions. On my time, my heart, my act, my love for this scene, felt judged and questioned at the same time, my love for this game being something that was pure and free as a platform; as a extra activity. TF2 for me, was never supposed to be a focus, but now with what I'm focusing on, I cant let my activity on the side get weak!

I have to start putting the work into the fun stuff, the things you wont think about, the extra effort on the grass parade you dont have half the mind the think twice about.

I just wanted to say thanks.

Thanks Burden for inspiring me and my interest in the oldschool pocket soldier meta. He was a big deal for me, wish at the top of my heart he would come back and stomp all of you into the ground.

Thanks B-Wreck for inspiring me to get into comp, he played the old school stuff, and if you dont know him, some of us older guns might recognize that name, he was checking out early on Team Interrobang (made a thread about that legendary pub back when Dave_AC decided to have a 2nd coming and pub stomp them on demo and get banned for it)

Thanks Vhalin for every word and message you gave me to inspire my soldier, despite being a med main in the end, Ill try and take that box soldier ethic back home to the pub. If my word means anything, if community weapons come back, please for the love of god give him the box because his map work has gone un-noted in my mind

Praise Dave_AC

Sorry despite the amount of influence I took from Boink and Techno, sorry for being argumentative as a fan, I didnt know you guys but you inspired me heavily in comp. Sorry Boink for giving you such a hard time on youtube for playing overwatch, you inspired me a lot.

Cheeto, you need to get your shit together. UGC? put out the fucking medals already.

Fuck, what else.

I will make the RGB lan documentary, Im looking into new options for better video cameras, its getting expensive, I expect to make at least a flip, or loose money on this.

I will take all profit from work and make Uber Cast.

If you payed any attention to me, thanks.

IF you wanna shit talk, go for it, I think it doesnt mean anything besides a inside joke I cant hustle at this point.

Edit: also sorry for any typos, I've always been better at writing things down, always, the forum stuff, has never been at my best, I just suck with a keyboard on communication. I think a good amount of you has always been able to appreciate hearing me talk, and I promise when I get the proper chance to speak on a platform that has this game, our comp scene, perhaps even our pubbers little platform at heart, it will be for the best intentions on my part.

Trust me, I'm doing and planning on some real support for our scene. But I cant be a admin for leagues, I already went thru hell with Cheeto with UGC and I'm not wasting my time again with that. Best I can do is play this game and give some real positive feedback and help so players grow. Thats it, thats my part. The rest of you already got hands in RGL, UGC, public pubs, etc. but its not just them, the admins, the mods, you players gotta shape up. This shit has just not been fun. Fuckin cmon, when do we start shaping up?