Def going since i live in LA. CU@.

You'd probably want to go to the UGC forums then. The forums here for the most part focus on ESEA.

checkmate esports east and central both died due to scheduling issues so we merged the teams on checkmate esports central and are now playing with a pretty good available lineup

Having a shit rep because I was a cocky asshole who thought I was all that because I played steel medic on a hl team when I first started pugging and not being able to claw myself out of the shit rep even though I actively try to improve and be a better player so I can not be shit like I used to be. And when people assume that i'm the person i was a year ago and assume that I never improve and that if I ever show signs of improvement its always a fluke. And that im a "meme" and that i'll always be bad or that I only play medic because im bad at other classes, or that I act like the leader i was over a year ago.

Start playing 6's instead of HL. Play Newbiemixes and scrim more rather than pugging. Getting a mentor earlier. Keep your head low but your mind open. Stay with the people you liked, not the people that were better.

already found the scout...

MonkeyJedi, Unskilled, Popcorn, SkeleKnight, Milky

Super funny player with the best EU gimmicks. Can play pretty much every class at decent level but can get slightly fanny flustered from time to time. Has good calls. Overall a really cool player.

IDK in my experience its other player's mindsets too. "Medic is an easy class." Many other players don't respect medic mains, Doing well isn't as clear cut as the other classes. I've heard multiple times from different medic mains ranging from steel to Invite saying they don't know if they did good or not or if they are really improving as medic(Nursey has said this). It's hard to give medic a first try because its such an important class, and usually people are very toxic when things go wrong. An example is when Console (a low-mid open medic) dropped an uber resulting in a tie on PugChamp and B4nny flipped out cursing at him and calling him an idiot. (BTW Console has quit medic) Other players easily blame the medic for their faults, even if its not the medic's fault, and if these medics are inexperienced they might think that medic isn't for him/her or they are just bad. I'm not disagreeing with you on the fact that most players don't like medic, but what I am saying is that the population of medic's is then decreased even further due to allot of these things. IDK maybe I'm biased because I'm a medic main but allot of this stuff has happened to me but I have seen many others experience the same.