I'm no doctor but I would strongly recommend therapy and spending time with your loved ones. I can only speak for myself but if a friend or family member of mine was facing the issues you do I wouldn't hesitate to help them out as best I can.
carnaticumlmfao ppl rly being born in america having the privilege to post on niche Internet forums being depressed bro it’s literally all on u. nothing excites you or makes you happy? That’s your fault, you literally can do more things than 99% of the world bro stop playing games, stop posting lachrymose bait on tftv and go do something active.
there are always going to be people like this, try to surround yourself with a company of good people. In my experience there are a lot more of them than you may think.
I can't say how much I empathize with you and if you ever want to chat my discord is Yhprum ringme #4039
otherwise, take care and do what makes you happy.