zxpI don't think I'm good enough to pursue a phd in my field of studies and it's kind of bumming me out
If there's one thing you shouldn't knock yourself on, it's getting a PhD. Half of all doctorate students don't graduate.
You're way more than a very VERY difficult degree to acquire, hope you catch an upswing soon partner
E: To add, with my own current down feelings, I'm starting to take interest in Sports PA Announcing/Commentating for Basketball. Obviously I can't gauge effort if I've never attempted it, but I've always had insecurities of my (lack-of) enunciation/clown-like voice. Literally had someone in TF2Center yesterday try to get snarky with me solely because of how I sound. Still can't knock it before I try it, which further outlines exactly how LAZY I am.