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I like oldschool shit rn

really? nobody mentioned this game?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkf_duowRrE

possibly the greatest comeback of all time

I make my loadouts as awful looking as possible in an intimidation tactic against my opponents

what's the lan fee to signup?

obtaining a klondike bar

ok but hear me out here....

what if?

tryna tell me you don't like getting hit in the face with balls?

The changes were pretty good QoL stuff but I feel like every point has the same issue in that it's pretty hard to hold doors properly so ur combo has to stand in some awkward positions that seem to be really easy to punish once they get through the doors, The changes on the mid doors made it slightly easier to deal with but still feels difficult to hold (maybe that's ur intention then fair enough)

I think Last and pushing out of the lobby on last need to be reworked, the last feels impossible to hold, your combo has to guess which door their not going in to even have a chance, rotating feels like all you do is walk your combo into a deathpit and then when you try and push out ur pushing either low ground surrounded by massive highground differences (main shutter for example) or you walk through a choke where you can't see anything till you've committed, so you walk in, spend 5s looking for traps and hiders and then they get to read where ur combo is and can hardstack ur flank and they just get fucked purely because you can't really see them till it's too late, even when testing aggressive ubers same thing happened, you'd kill their combo but it wouldn't matter cos u need so many players to hold the lobby properly you just get punished even if your uber does work, trading felt okay if you could force them but they can literally have 2 300 health soldiers hiding around a corner which u cant see at all till you actually commit, so if they see you early you get instagibbed in whatever door you decide to push.

my suggestions on how to fix is maybe remove a door from last or make it so theres a more structured highground near spawn that's more intuitive to hold and possibly make one of the doors in lobby to push out easy to bomb through (every door u walk through a doorframe into a box which has a roof and another doorframe to get through) cos atm it's like even if you clear the door they can just play timings and run past you when you clear the area cos there's too many corners

Fighting over the point feels super scrappy, every fight feels like ur taking a 1v1 instead of a co-ordinated team fight cos of how vision-blocking/corner-choke heavy the map feels, its very claustrophobic to fight around the point and cos there is like literally 0 colour differences on either side it makes comms pretty confusing

the spawn timers are also ridiculously fast, i would kill someone at the health pack in their lobby/house thing and they would spawn by the time i got back to the point, just encourages feed bombing non stop it feels like.

Liked that it wasn't sniper dominant and there was some good opportunities to do some fun small ad pushes playing off the vision-blocking structures of the map

was ok would play again

Glad twiikuu is the only one named in this post, truly the destroyer of tf2.

@b4nny thoughts?

when you maincall and try a new idea for a push and it wipes the enemy team almost instantly
killing both scouts as a projectile class
spamming arrows at a med and dropping him

Lets get deep.

This is gonna be a few paragraphs of reading so be ready

So our story begins shortly after i63, I decided after so many years of being a couch potato and struggling with mental health issues to finally get on the gym grind, great right? not so great, I quickly found out I have a very aggressive skin allergy to the metal in the bars (dermatitis) and didn't know what it was for a while so very quickly I started to get horrible blister type inflamation under my eyelids and any other exposed skin. I had also developed some type of serotonin syndrome(? still not 100% sure keep reading) in this time because the pump from working out was so intense, I started having very manic like behaviour shortly after this., I would force myself to go to the gym when I was struggling to see where I was going and being extremely delusional/hallucinations on top of that, Not only did I cause some damage to my eyesight and still have rough skin around most joints, Once I started to get stronger the Intensity of working out started to fade and I started to injure myself, to the point I had tendonitis so bad I lost feeling in my hands for a month which meant I had to take a lengthy break from the gym which then made my serotonin levels start to drop dramatically and my mental illness(es?) started going completely crazy, This was around i65 that these issues came to a climax.

So leading up to i65 I was on a team as scout with some people I know, was hoping that Lan would bring me out of my awful mood and awful behaviour towards my teammates, but that was the beginning of the darkest period of my life I would come to find out. On the flight down to Birmingham my phone got stolen, I had slept like 4 hours maybe cos my flight was early as fuck (haha insomnia amirite) so I didn't notice until I was on the plane. Luckily, I was flying down with Sivik, Louis and Plunk so getting around/communication with my family wasn't a problem, But I couldn't access my steam account or emails to get into my account. Not the worst of things to happen, but then after the first day I buy some energy drinks from the local shop and go to bed. Well I guess someone must have kicked my bag in the meantime because that can burst all over my peripherals, ruining my mouse and keyboard which I literally bought for that lan (Also ruined my headset like a week or 2 after lan). I was already pretty low on cash seeing as I was working 0 hour contract so losing like £150 and it not being on alcohol is pretty depressing in its own right. After that I then got food poisoning on the day of grand finals, I could pull through to watch the grand finals but didn't wanna stay around after that.

After coming back from lan feeling as if I was cursed, I thought things would improve in life once my hands were recovered and tried to look forward to that, boy was I wrong. The last 6 months of my life has been literal hell, My brother has stole from me multiple times, ruined christmas by being an alcoholic with a drug addiction and a 4 year old son that I honestly hope CPS has a chance to save from the upbringing he's going to have, my parents trying to physically abuse me as well as constantly mental abuse, 2 of my friends committed suicide in this time also and on new years eve I watched my coworker have a heart attack and then I lost my job a month later (liquidation), This was during my season of prem which we were planning to go to the BTS Lan which got cancelled, so the only thing I was looking forward to at that point ended up being a waste of close to £800 (big ups coyo for giving me some of the cash to help, genuinely couldn't ask for a better friend, never even mentioned that I needed the money or anything to him).

I was at the lowest point in my life mentally, I couldn't feel anything but pain. I'm sure people noticed the extremely morbid steam names and behavioural changes I was going through. I've had a feeling for a long time in my life that I have to force every social interaction in order to get people to even acknowledge my existence. So when people started reaching out to me it definitely helped but after a while it just felt like those people felt obligated to do that as well and were just trying to give advice instead of being actual friends, never talking to me again after the one or 2 conversations and telling me things like I shouldn't rely on other people to be happy. I haven't had any real close friends in real life or online so hearing things like that are soul destroying, nobody gives a fuck about how I feel for the most part and why should they? these are the kinds of mindsets I go through every single day and when days are good I start getting some kind of amnesia and forget a lot of things, I get very severe dissociation when I'm doing things, so one good day can result in a week of complete confusion. Then there were the people who thought they were tryna be funny or some shit like hamaham who tried to ridicule me when I was having a very extreme mental breakdown, finding out people in circlejerks have chatlogs of things I say saved to shame me or something. When people talk about how this community is so nice I don't know what the fuck they're talking about I can name plenty of awful people in this community, myself being one of them.

I finally decided to go see a doctor to try and help with my issues, I explained to him this story and what i've been going through and he pretty much immediately got me on the max dosage as fast as possible of antidepressant, But I can't get the proper medicine I need because of coronavirus I can't actually see a therapist or a psychiatrist to figure out what's actually wrong with me, The medicine helps with some of the issues at least but not knowing what is actually wrong with you is a horrifying feeling. An educated guess as to what I personally believe is the issue is extreme Clinical depression coupled with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder but it could be something "more serious" like bipolar-schizoaffective disorder because of the hallucinations/delusions (not sure if these were caused by severe insomnia or If i'm genuinely just fucking losing it) and if I am the latter I genuinely fear for what could happen to me mentally because as times gone on life has got nothing but worse. I have no support system in my life and only a handful people on my friendslist that actually make the effort to try to be a legitimate friend, even just the people that say hi here and there, they don't know how much it means to me these days.

Some people already know of my issues so this might be a shock to people, but I finally feel comfortable enough to talk about the more recent issues in my life and to the people that are gonna judge me fuck you.

TL;DR Life is pain; mental health issues is are very real thing; fuck hamaham.

Shoutouts to people like Kn, Coyo, Mars, Owen, Catbowcar, Geezers, Gavin, Crayon, Mai, those in the cuckshed, my team last season for putting up with possibly my most toxic behaviour ever, I genuinely apologise and don't know why you guys decided to put up with it honestly, and a few others I'm forgetting. I wouldn't still be here if these people weren't in my life.

he's tryna be a sadboi soundcloud rapper isn't it obvious?

become an alcoholic like a true degenerate of society would