LittleNyarI want to apologize for what I wrote. I am still very young and I don't think I fully understood how close people were to someone online and I didn't think through what I said. After processing things I understand that this wasn't "just a joke" and I am really sorry for the hurt I caused. I really have no excuse, though upon reflecting on my behavior I now realize I was not entirely understanding what I was saying and I was lashing out because of problems in life and being unsure whether I would have a place to live.
I am not sure if you knew this when you made your decision but the comment I made was on a very small discord server. Immediately after making the comment I was banned (understandably) and I had no chance to remove it or apologise for what I said. After this the comment what I wrote was then spread around and I had to deal with people who used to harassed me (which tbh happens regularly as an underaged girl on TF2). It was placed on my recruitment post. People I didn't know added me threatening to show it to the ETF2L admins. I had no way to take back what I said while also dealing with people who wanted to upset me or take advantage of my inexperience. At the time I chose not to do anything as I didn't know what the right thing to do was.
I understand that he was your friend and I am sorry that for upsetting you with what I wrote but I hope you understand they were private messages that I regret and reconsider the length of time I am banned for.
I am sorry for any hurt I caused,
Little Nyar
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