Things are slightly better nowadays for me. I finished my semester with straight A’s and I’ve been working a lot more in general.

I was also diagnosed with bipolar ii disorder last fall, which was a major boost for continuing to improve mental health wise. With just everything that’s happened I feel pretty cold and disinterested with life, but I’m trying my best to contnue moving forward despite that.

This will be going on your annual performance review tojo

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Had to think about what to post but here goes nothing.

I don't know how many of you remember early rgl, but back then we had makkabeus as the head admin. He was incredibly over reaching with his restrictions and often times would class lock ppl who had simply placed high in the division the season before, failed to find an invite team, and were looking to play the season on their main in advanced.

Now this happened to me multiple times. For over a year I had to play fuckass soldier seasons because I literally could not find an invite team and was not willing to make one. So instead I played soldier, lost a lot since frankly I am not good at all at soldier and didn't bother to practice (whoops.) But it still took my head out of the game and made me heavily resent the admin team and more importantly, heavily resent pretty much everything tf2 related.

My point in this is to say that class restrictions don't just prevent old players from returning, as millie said above, but also lock people off their classes for an extended period of time and, such as in my case, cause players to no longer wish to compete seriously.

Last thing I'll say is as someone who played during the esea era, I can sincerely tell you that the sandbagging was not that bad. Yes! sandbaggers won most seasons. But it didn't change the fact that the divisions were much more competitive and the general parity between mid to top open/intermediate was a lot better. Just removing class restrictions and letting people play their mains (outside of incredibly egregious examples) should be good enough to keep the divisions fun and stable.

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I know discussing politics on tftv never ends well but like jesus fuck we are in dark times.

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Today I will bait the tf2 community again!

Unfortunate truth is the game is on its death bed and we're still bickering about how a gamemode is run. If you want things to be better, actually do something to fix said issues instead of complaining on the competitive tf2 version of reddit.

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Hard to really pinpoint how much this game has meant to me. I remember launching it as a kid in middle school, to playing 6s in high school, to eventually playing jump maps and speed running for top times as an adult. It's really just meant the world to me at every spot.

I made so many good friends throughout my journey, and while some didn't stand the test of time I still value every person I've encountered on this journey. I was a very difficult person to be around for much of the time I've spent in tf2 up until this point, and I can't express enough gratitude that I was never shunned despite how moody and temperamental I was.

I would say my favorite part was the friendships I gained, but also just growing up with the game and it being my main competitive outlet over the past 10 years. The kindness and acceptance I've experienced in the community cannot be taken for granted, and I hope everyone knows how great of a place this game is.

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I was groomed a fair amount when I was a young 16/17 old trans girl in this community. Some of the groomers are permanently banned, many are not, and unfortunately I've witnessed a lot of my peers from that era end up repeating the cycle of trauma and passing on the pain they were undeservedly given to the next generation of young community members.

I really plead with anyone who's ever been groomed, or hurt in other ways by sex pests, to attempt to seek mental health resources and deal with the pain that was inflicted on them.