Hello to everyone, sorry for the long-winded introduction, I just felt like it. (This kind of doubles as my "Before you came to PerC" thread post)

I've been a long time visitor of tf.tv. Anytime there'd been a topic of interest I would wonder in here and always find some fantastic discussions. So, I finally decided to join.

I'm a pyro main and as it is apparently common with this type, I have always felt out of place. I never had too much trouble finding company, but it was through extensive experimentation of my own behaviour and observation of the reaction to that. Being 'myself' didn't go well for me during my younger years in high school and I hopped between countless groups while adapting my identity just enough to maintain people's interest in me so that I could get to know them.

I met all kinds of people during this time and I enjoyed picking up on their behavioural patterns. But ultimately, I felt like I lacked something that everyone else had. I was interested in people's thoughts the same way you'd examine the anatomy of a new specie - it was curiosity for the unknown more than anything else because I felt like the people around me worked so differently from the way I did. Which, actually made it really interesting to try and figure them out. But it felt strange that I could find core similarities between my friends, but not with myself and them.

Luckily, I made some incredible friends whom I continue to share my most important experiences with to this date. But I still felt inherently different even to them and I just wanted to know why. No one around me was really interested in randomly discussing airblassting or combos to the same extent as I did, which was fine because I found other things to talk about. But because of this, the concepts I loved so dearly to fantasise about could only be explored in films, books and music.

It wasn't until I met my second girlfriend in the last year of high school that I felt like I found someone I could truly share all of my thoughts with to my mind's content. I hadn't heard anything about the scout mains then but retrospectively speaking, that was the first time I'd properly met someone else who was an soldier main. She was wicked smart, her mind ran wild with imagination and she had one hell of an attitude. She also had this unyielding air of mystery surrounding her no matter what I did to try and figure her out. I felt like I knew her all my life but at the same time, I didn't know her at all.

Up until a few years ago, it was just an inexplicable phenomena. Stupidly, I began to think it was just something that only happened with romantic relationships. But then I came across the demo main and I realised it wasn't the case. As much as I knew people were "different" from one another, the demomain gave me a better understanding of those differences. Fantastic timing, as it was around the time I'd made my first and only male spy main friend - who I could speak to endlessly about the most random topics.

After some research, I found there are very few male medic mains and that there are more S types than N - now, I don't feel as bad about not coming across people that are more similar to me, I feel like I understand myself and others a little better now. And finding this forum was great because there's an abundance of people of all types that like to discuss topics spanning across every spectrum.

I look forward to joining some of these great discussions here and hopefully I can conjure up some decent threads myself.