then you get pissed of and snap all the raw spaghetti in half but say fuck it and still throw it all in the pot and forget about it until its done cooking but when you come to put some of it on the plate when its done you realize you fucked up the spaghetti so theyre all too fucking short to enjoy and eat properly and you have to be super careful to get the short spaghetti on the fork but then the spaghetti keeps slipping on the fork into the steaming hot watery alfredo sauce and it burns your face when it splashes and you get even more pissed off and frustrated because you knew there was no need to break the spaghetti in the first place, and if you just controlled your anger a little bit you could've come up with a better way to vent in the long run rather than using pure negative emotion to crush whatever is in front of me at that very moment in the short-run and then you remember what your ex said about your aggressivity and how that was one of the most important points to make her dump your ass and how you didnt even try to change a little bit for her sake because you internally thought it wasnt a big deal but you didnt realize how angry you acted on a day-to-day basis and you only thought about rare moments where you went overboard and you thought you controlled those moments pretty well. Didn't help that you called her a whore and fleed the scene without even trying to apologize for your present and past behaviors effectively ending the relationship forever without a chance to overcome those tough times as two mature adults that understand and love each other. Even though you love her its been 4 months and now you feel its too late and that whore is probably already talking behind your back about how shitty you were and how abusive you were even though you spend your whole life without understanding why you were so angry all the time and you didn't mean to be so mean to her because you genuinely found someone you loved for the first time and you got completely lost with the overwhelming genuine good and bad emotions you were dealing with. Now you realized you just spent 15 minutes in silence looking at your shitty fragmented and soggy spaghetti and you reflect on how much it is a completely perfect analogy of the mess you call your life

ahaha fuck hold me bros i should go grip a 9

them jew girls be hittin different i guess

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dude i fucking love her man what the fuck why did this happen FUCK

u should make a tumblr or smth bro this isn’t a good look

i normally snap all the spaghetti in half regardless of my emotional state, because my pot is kinda small

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shit happens mang

time to forget her and work on yourself for a bit. it's cliche but there really are a lot of fish in the sea. discard any happily-ever-after fantasies you have with this 1 girl it will only hold you back.

i cannot muster up the will to do anything
everything Ive done to improve myself over the past few weeks has been for her
i went from drinking every day to once or twice per week for HER

that seems to be rooted in poor self esteem; you're supposed to be doing those things for yourself. can't be putting all your eggs in 1 basket otherwise you'll end up in your position. you'll get past it eventually – treat this as a learning opportunity.

this guy gets it

also lol@ having a gf before 30

so u used to drink everyday and have anger issues
rly bro what did you think was gonna happen
whatever you do, do it for yourself not for other people, or else you will just be putting on a mask, not really changing at your core

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