vaniWhen I was unemployed I felt pretty bad because I wanted to do something but was too lazy to do it (its a great evil circle). Now I have a job and feel like I have no time over for hobbies or even to properly sleep. Life is good!
TFTV; CHILDHOOD STORIES EDITION
When I was young I would change schools a lot, 6 times though 7 years ? or so. It was my parents decisions and I was too young to understand, bare remember anything. We also ended up moving places three or so times so I didn't really have many long-term friends or hell I'd even say not at all. I got into gaming at a young age and my dad saw it as the "devils tool", heh. It was a pretty conflicting childhood, we had no internet at home until I was 14 so I didn't get much social interaction but I always felt a desire since my parents didn't really cut it and we moved around constantly. TF2 came out and we got a connection at home I ended up meeting people over the years and I thought it was the coolest thing ever that you could play and talk to people at the same time. Things escalate. I would never have imagined being here 6-7 years ago.
Its amazing that my dad still doesn't understand the concept of having online friends, playing any video game competitively or having different hobbies but I never had good communication with him either. I had to teach myself a lot of things and feel stressed about if I was doing them right or wrong. Our relationship is an extremely lost case, but I never cared much for it since as long as I remember I've disliked him. At least I didn't get beaten to death.
Surprisingly I didn't mind it too much. Its just how "family" was to me back then and I made the best out of hit. Its pretty fucked up when you think about it.
I look back on these things and I guess its a life experience and how I ended up finding something I enjoyed and friends and all that but I don't know man, I've had great times with this game and the community and my friends and I don't regret it and I'm happy how it turned out in the end. But its pretty hard to see my younger experiences as something valuable. The grass is always greener on the other side, and there is always someone who has it worse than you.
the very last sentence is very true