Yesterday, I had a movie date with a girl. She really likes me, and I really like her. We watched the movie, didn't have the balls, nothing happened. But, we spent the evening together. We're having a great time, everything is smooth. Then I bring her back home and can notice she's really nervous. I want to do it, I've been waiting for this moment for a long time... we're in front of her door. Drummer, just do it. We're going to kiss, our lips are so close... suddenly, she backs out. "I'm...sorry, I'm too shy... we'll meet again soon, okay?".

Her friends later told me it's been a while she didn't have a boyfriend, she just panicked. Apparently, she feels bad about this, I don't want her to, even though I'm a bit angry (more like disappointed) inside because I waited so long for that, just to be brutally stoped, so fucking close.

2AM, she sends me a message: "Hey, I'm really sorry. :/ I need to think about it...good night :)".

It just worries me. I know she likes me, but when a girl says "I need to think about it", it's generally not really good. Now I'm nervous, I just want her to text me back, I can't stop thinking about this, whether it's "Hey, let's meet in a few days" or "Sorry, it just won't work".

I'm angry at myself for setting my expectations high.

https://www.reddit.com/r/tf2/comments/527ppe/how_can_we_fix_competitive/d7i2659

I angered a heavy main by saying competitive should have class limits and GRU make heavy too powerful

Everyone can get into the site.

Try to get into a lobby now.

Ok, I tried getting into the website with uBlock origin's anti-adblock killer, it still blocks it.

What a bunch of assholes. It's like they want us to switch.

Use uBlock origin with the anti-adblock killer

I wish people would migrate to TF2Stadium but their reasoning is just "oh well it's empty so I won't try to populate it", and it goes full circle.

https://www.reddit.com/r/tf2/comments/51nxj7/competitive_tf2_league_admins_unveil_global/d7dr53e

AronTimes bis

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmtU2WJfPgU

shit video, excellent music...progressive metal

Yeah, stacking is the problem

I don't want toooooooooo

"Reserve shooter is fine, and the Natascha slowdown is perfectly reasonable"

I never thought r/tf2 could spew that much bullshit, and still get upvotes

One day, one day...

Thank you, man.

I love this parody, have it on my phone

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mZXwSME7rU

(some groovy djent from periphery, not for sensible ears)

"b4nny isn't really very popular in the competitive community"

Hey, I got the same setup: drums, PC, bed. I've already tried playing drums...neighbors complain. I've looked into an e-kit, but it definitely isn't the same at all, I don't want to sell my drumkit, and I really want to keep that "real" feel on the instrument. An e-kit won't really solve the problem I'm having: I've bought silent pads to put on my drumheads, and Cymbomutes, but the problem is the vibrations from the pedals, they get through the floor and all the building can feel them. I'd need to get a really really thick carpet to put under my drums, and I already have one. I practice my technique a lot on snare pads, but I really want to play drums.

Thanks for the help!

I'm bored as fuck, I'm lazy.

TF2 is a literal drug, I think it makes me feel better, and then I close it and realize I'm wasting all my life on this. I'd practice drums all day long if I could, but I have neighbours and I don't know where to put my drumkit, other than in my apartment. I want to do something of my days, I love drums, I love music, and I love TF2. I often see friends, I nearly have a girlfriend, I take breaks from the internet (and it feels great). I have a lot of fun just leaving town with friends, having rehearsals, not thinking about TF2 at all...but in the end, I just come back to it. And I spend my days on it, doing nothing else.

I don't know how to organize my thoughts