Not to treat this thread like a journal, but I have found another milestone. A job that values you and knows your worth. (Not the same from my original post go figure)
Having a team behind you makes all the difference. Writing this to reflect on the happiness in being accepted to a full time salary position after struggling landing a full time position out of college in 2020.
All of this to say if you don't feel at home and supported at your current role I stress you to continue looking and find your people. They are out there and will see your value.
I know the gauntlet of online applications is reaching critical mass, reading about how AI has effected job applications is wild. I can go on a tirade on my personal experience going through it after having serious self anxiety and impostor syndrome during the interview process. Happy to talk to others who may feel the same.
Hope all are well