I hate myself, I'm a guy with big aspirations, i always wan to do something for tf2 community but it doesn't matter how much i try there is always someone who will destroy my dreams or ruin my ideas. However this is nothing compared to trash-talking people. I try so hard to ignore them but i can't. I don't understand why i'm doing this, even now typing those words i know there will be someone laughing at me. Sometimes i just feel like everything is pointless. No matter what i do, what i try to do or what i'm trying to accomplish, i always fail. I hate how this world works, i hate this anger between players. I just can't handle that much hatred directed to someone else who is trying to enjoy playing same game, and the worst part of this is that some people are just doing this to feel better.
Maybe they are just like me, they are trying to do something, but nothing is working or they have similar problems with rude players and instead of thinking about this like me they are just spreading hatred towards other players just because someone else did this to them. That way we have never ending circle of hatred which can't be stopped.
I hate this, and i can't do anything about this but i'm still trying.
Or maybe there is no problem with anything else, maybe the only problem out there is me who just can't accept this world...
And sorry for my English, i hate myself because of my English.