maxieI'm having similar frustrations with my tf2 career as well -- after spending some time back in the game this summer it rekindled my interest in competitive. However, I notice there are a lot of people looking and not many teams, and I don't know if I can carry the burden of leading and all the things coming with it. Just having two sides of that coin always puts me on the fence whether it concerning my return to playing the game. I'm just not sure I have the charisma to keep people sitting on their butts practicing for 2 months.
Get a friend to lead the team with you
And if you're thinking of leading a HL team, definitely get someone. It's incredibly hard to organize that alone and in a timely fashion