when my long, excruciating days are over, i want to play team fortress 2. i like to think i'm pretty decent at the game, and on most days i don't have any problems with the games i play. i play well, i get a lot of frags, and i generally have a pleasant experience. some days, however, i get completely floored by 1 or 2 good players and/or teams. and when that happens i get frustrated at them for a short while, but then afterwards it turns into frustration at myself for being unable to live to that level of play. that's something i WANT to play on! why aren't i? what am i doing wrong?
eventually, the day passes and i go back playing like normal. but in the back of my head the memories those days still linger on. all i can really say is "maybe one day i'll be able to play like that."
i know it seems kind of cringeworthy to want to play good at a dying 14 year old video game but i love it a lot, and i'd like to have as much fun in a form i like as possible before i move on.
if you've had an experience like mine or wanna say something else, please do. i'd like to know