I remember on the come up I used to be like this too.. not in pubs but in 6s I would get quite emotional (very young, age 14-18) and was really trying to improve at the game. There were days when I thought that I could never get super good. I had this bitch voice in my head saying "you'll never be as good as b4nny or plat or dummy" but I knew that if I kept grinding, kept the emotions at bay, and attack everything and every situation analytically i'd keep improving. I had to ignore the bitch voice and the emotional tilt of not getting the immediate results I wanted.

One of my best friends and mentors, you know him by blaze, a couple years ago he once told me that it's because you think youre not improving that you actually WILL improve. but the thing is, it takes time to improve. it's because you care so much and youre dedicated to improving that any bad result will frustrate you.

But the important thing to remember is to keep everything in your life balanced. if you are getting too burnt out (which will make you more frustrated and drains the mental) take a break and do other things. definitely do physical workouts or exercise it helps so much with mental stress its not even funny.

Im not no therapist or psychologist but learning meditation might also help you manage mental stress and negative emotions. This will allow you to get better at quickly detaching from frustration or negative thoughts and itll reset your mental state to neutral or even positive thinking, which will/can allow you to return back into flow state.

Last but not least, no one likes to play bad. even if you are playing bad in a team situation, being positive / analytical about it you wont bring your entire team down with you. its very easy to fuck up the mumble/team comm vibes if youre frustrated, speaking from first hand exp.

good luck

jokes on you all, us three on table #9 would start smoking up immediately and then cause the fire alarms to go off, forcing all of us to get evacuated out the building

if only ya'll-qaeda didnt spend over 2 trillion dollars on afghanistan

Welcome back

they'd rather spend their money bombing poor people in caves than spending money on their own people

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzfHzE7cOAs

big door

TFTV Cypher when?? Definitely can't be worse than XXL

Yeah they used to say "habib, stickies"
Failed to execute the plan, yeah we wasn't sticky
If I ever pushed through the flank, would you come with me?
If I ever pushed through the flank, would you commit with me?

Ugh, 45th mans washed up just like Donald Trump
Cant even ctap let alone properly jump
My pipes fat like bitch booty you best believe that shit be plump
10 mins before every scrim stomach twisted I gotta take a fucking dump

Yeah we miss our old b4nnys,
Sometimes we used to trust, no habib stickies
Maybe its time for a switch up, no Yeezus
Time to bring back the goat, Pipe Jesus
And for the other part of the schemin,
Habib scout unleashed, that's a demon.

bars wtf

this aint it brother

GGs only, well deserved

beast

maybe a plant or two for some blessed oxygen
a fan?? more of a necessity than an accessory tbh for those intense sweaty gamer moments
having a side lamp as mentioned above can be nice especially for that electric bill

outside the game:

most of the time Im having an off day its definitely because I didnt sleep well, am not hydrated, and just simply didnt stick to the routine i've setup for myself. however, if youre adhering and the aspects outside the game are on point but youre still having an off night, then its time to talk about mentally resetting yourself in game.

in game

if you have a bad start and you are able to mentally recollect yourself in the midst of a game, you'll be able to bounce back. dont think too much on whats already happened but rather use that ask urself what needs to change. there have been plenty of times where i started off mega negative and then completely turn it around to wipe or roll a team.

and remember to not over-practice or under-practice your DM, i feel like its really easy to go into games either super cold or super burnt and depending on how much you play it can either be for better or for worse. if youre struggling to understand what to do in some situations as well and just cant come to a resolve its time to bust out those demo reviews. lastly, also ask if your teammates can notice something not right with your gameplay, this can help alot with different perspectives into play.

but with that being said good luck