im a failure in every aspect in life and i lost the only thing that motivated me to better myself and now i feel completely lost and worthless
none of my friends seem to really enjoy having me around and i always feel pushed back
i will never be good enough for the person i love and i cant seem to get over them no matter how hard i try
i started taking opioids and drinking again because thats the only thing that helps me become numb to all the shitty things that i think and feel
i probably shouldnt even be posting this here and get some real help instead but i just feel like im too far gone