To be honest, when your life has given you so many obstacles and hardships to overcome with your family and relationships in general, it might be best to have some time to yourself to figure out your life and really find out how you are going to fix your situation so that you can have a better life. relationships arn't necessary, companionship is nice but there is no sense trying to force something especially in the situation you are in. if it were me, id take the time to myself, developing and maintaining a relationship (esp. in your circumstances) can be very hard and just work against you in the end.