Dear, hpqoeu, Falcon0408, Fozzim, saam < you really need to read this post saam, and owl

"Most muslims are ok but a lot of them rape and kill "

This statement is not racist xenophobic or islamophobic in anyway at all

I didn't say ALL Muslims rape and kill. I said "a lot" of them do, but most of them are cool. Let me explain guys - A lot means A large extent, amount, or number of something, in this case Muslims. There are at least 200,000 members in ISIS at the moment. Now I think its fair to call that A large amount. Now I also said MOST of them are OK so again - let me explain. Most means the majority of something, for example if there are 10 people and 9 of them have brown hair and 1 of them has black hair, then most of these people have brown hair.

How many times do I have to say I have no problem with all muslims. I just have a problem with Islam as a religion. Most muslims are ok but a lot of them rape and kill and the quran doesn't help anything.

I was told that you decided not to allow prez because of people (including you) not liking me for some pointless reasons. If that's not the case then I was fed misinformation but your team still disallowed a merc who you knew we really needed considering how badly the team was going with everyone leaving mid season and having no scout at all. Then you spam binds in chat after winning because your team knew it would just upset me more. So of course i'm going to support top5 in chat.

I'm sorry though I don't talk shit in twitch chat any more than the rest of us. You would need to hate 80% of the TF2 community if that's the reason you dislike me. Also when I was saying stuff like "why are top5 in playoffs" It was an obvious joke since we got knocked out.

I didn't make this thread because "someone hurt my feelings". This has way more to do than that. I've been bullied all my life at school because of my lisp and the autism and I want to play TF2 to Escape from all that. I'm getting people adding me on steam though and harassing me because I said I didn't like their religion, every time I talk people laugh at me. Not just random scrubs top prem players and a lot of people in prem have been really mean to me when all i've done is looked up to them. I used to ask smzi to play mge with me and I remember he just removed me then made fun of my lisp in chat and then I got asked to into an interview and this happens right after we got 5-0d so i'm already feeling down and I have never done anything to smzi except praise his scout play and ask to mge him. I can usually laugh it of but these people have treated me like shit because of my voice since I started playing TF2. It's not just my voice they find anything they can to pick on me cause they know i'm autistic and they were driving me away from TF2.

Thalash and Tviq used to always call me an autistic dribbling faggot who's a downy with a stupid lisp. They did they to me for no reason, I never even talked to them before they started doing this and they kept doing it when I was on a server. Since I started playing competitive TF2 I have been treated like shit because my voice is different. I'm sick of seeing people praise people like thalash smzi or tviq as nice guys when they were trying to make me quit tf2 for good and were so mean to me as often as they could be.

Sorry but who is using things I said against me? Are you talking about the hafficool and me pastebin. I think he looks like just as big an idiot as I do in that but we got over it ages ago and met at LAN and we are friends now. Also

"Sheepy I honestly don't know what you expect to get for saying someone is not intelligent enough to understand your music taste"

Did you read anything I wrote on this thread? In the pastebin Haffi misinterpreted what I was saying when I said "he should listen to it again when youre older" This has nothing to with intelligence. I was trying to tell him he might like it when he's older because peoeples music tastes change. Why is no one listening to me.

You have never spoken to me once in your life. We have never been in the same mumble or typed anything to each other yet you still dislike me because you are great at taking things out of context. I was even told you denied the scout we have been pcwing with to merc in our official not because of his skill but because you just don't like me, despite not knowing anything about me at all really. So you are now saying you hate me even more because of twitch chat? Because I was supporting top5 to beat you guys or something. Sorry but you denied a merc and then spammed all your binds in chat after the game and you get upset because I type 4Head in chat when you lose?

Bona please explain the quotes? I was calling out beavern at dw because he was under preforming in most of his games. I was really doing it because I was a little jealous that I wasn't playing there when I consider myself a better scout atm (once he gets back into it he will be better again)

I don't see what the quotes have to do with each other and I think the 2nd quote makes perfect sense

"the times where u post 6 attention seeking ass meme lines in eutf2pugme come to mind"

I have no idea what you are talking about. Please explain what you are trying to mean by this.

Also about nico and the frenchies, It goes back but NiCO has hated me like really really hated me because I beat him in mge and then half way through the 2nd round I had to go (my steak was ready), He thought I had left to annoy him or something and i even told him i had dinner but he got super pissed. Which is ironic because he used to just leave the server if he was 3 points away from losing. You have all seen the pictures NiCO hates losing in MGE and when we played 6s he would taunt me after every kill and tg in chat. Him doing all this just because I left to eat food in MGE made me really dislike him so I had an unhealthy hatred for him as I thought he was immature and we just kept trying to make each other mad. So of course the Frenchies were on his side so they all hate me as well, i'm not just saying this but I think it was started by NiCO having a massive ego and bring immature and me being autistic or something cause I should have just ignored him when he was trying to wind me up.

Anyway a week before LAN he called me a retard so I was interested what he would do at LAN, First the frenchies came (izzy and those guys). Izzy shook hands with me and told me to kneel, I was confused and just laughed, I then went over to meet NiCO and held out my hand to shake and told him who I was. He seemed extremely shy not even saying anything and he shook my hand very lightly and sat back down again. Just a week before he called me a "fucking retard" and of course at lan unsurprisingly he was like a scared child. You can see now why I have a problem with NiCO but nowadays I just ignore him the best I can and I don't have to play the izzy or that group anymore cause they just brought out the worst in me.

Of course its untrue I made a mistake typing to fast. I have of course mentioned i'm autistic on the forums somewhere but I wouldn't say it unless it was relative to the topic cause like I said I feel embarrassed about it. What I mean is I'm trying to go about using my autism to get people to feel sorry for me or anything. I'm not looking for sympathy. i just think people should know why i act the way I do sometimes. Of course a lot of time it's no excuse if i''m being really immature or being a dumb troll. I just think people should know about it cause I don't want to lose the few friends I do have. Like last season with Planet Express where everyone thought I kicked half of the team. They actually left and me being autistic did play its part because it was just meant to be a fun team in high but I wanted us to go prem and started to put pressure on everyone, although I wasn't 100% to blame for them leaving. I just want people to know I will make a big effort and hopefully we can do well in prem next season if I can keep cool.

Fair enough but i'm fairly certain that today is one of the only days i've said i'm autistic on forums. I think everyone knew already but I never really went around telling people or posting it because I try not to let it control my actions and I am a little ashamed of it. I have probably said some things I shouldn't have said mainly because I want to be part of a discussion even if I don't know what i'm talking about. I just made this post after getting a lot of people adding me after making some posts on here and then casting on sunday. I got really upset with all the people adding me and wanted to make this post to clear things up so people won't hate me so much.

I think I should have gone to find you and say hi but I found it quite hard to approach people alone so I stayed at my desk most of the time. I did try to look for you but I didn't know what you looked like and my friends who were with me were doing other things.

The worst part is I was just wanting to have a friendly chat by posting a funny video of sigur ros cause they are icelandic.

sheepy: https://youtu.be/cUsCIJxQGAs?t=58s
[R]eason Hafficool: sigur rós sucks
sheepy: when you are older and listen to them properly you might change your mind
[R]eason Hafficool: you are younger than me
sheepy: but its just everyones reactions thats so funny
sheepy: I know
sheepy: im not saying it has to do with age
sheepy: im just saying if you get more activly into music you might like them more
sheepy: or not who knows
[R]eason Hafficool: you are retarded

I even said that I didn't mean that he has to be older to enjoy the music. I meant he might like them when he's older because he might be into post-rock by then, It was just him saying they suck and then calling me retarded that set me off and i started talking rubbish I just wanted to talk to him so we could become better friends but he ended up removing me.

Thanks a lot torr1t. This really helps my confidence and helps to calm down.

This is the only place where I can have a discussion with people. Also it's not just here I want to be able to play TF2 without all this anxiety. I also can't post on ETF2L because I posted a picture of suddenlystarnia and she reported me and I got permabanned

It's getting hard to ignore now but people are adding me on steam and insulting me because of things I have posted here and it's starting to get to me as I really like TF2 and its the only place I can really talk to people and don't want to end up leaving because of this. It has only ever bothered me slightly and I would to to laugh it of but its really starting to upset me now,

Literally all my life I have and still are laughed at, insulted and because of my autism, lisp and the way I talk, so school is literal hell for me so I just decided I should stop talking to everyone there and just read manga, which people also made fun of me for since I was into Japanese things a lot. Even when not in class, they just wouldn't stop making fun of me. I know i'm autistic and sometimes really stupid and I have pretty much no social awareness. I know I can troll sometimes but recently I don't feel like I've been too bad and a lot of the times things I say are me just trying to be funny and people take out of context or don't understand it in the way I intended. I do try really hard to be as nice a person I can, I just don't know how to act socially but I never want to hurt anyone's feelings. Recently I have been getting more and more hate from everyone like lots of people have been adding me on steam to tell me how I'm "an autistic mess with a pathetic lisp", Because of me trying to post opinions on things. I try my best to ignore it and have been doing that for the last 3 years but its getting hard to ignore now and i'm getting fed up. I know I shouldn't care so much about what others say about me or say to me but I play TF2 to escape real life and all the bullying I get at school but a lot of the people here are no different from them and pick on people because they are different. I try to build my confidence in talking by doing stuff like casting but people just can't stand my lisp and hate me because of how I sound so that only makes things worse.

Also a lot of people are really hating me without really knowing me just because i have a different opinion on something than them. I'm being called racist by everyone and a few french muslims were adding me on steam to call me a "racist weeaboo cunt". It really upsets me when i'm called racist or as mustardoverlord said "a racist freak". It upsets me a lot because I despise racism and I don't see how i'm racist an anyway, I just don't like Islam as a religion in itself I was brought up in a christian family who are very anti-islam but I don't judge people based on if they are muslim or not I only judge people when I actually talk to them. I just think its a bad religion but I have no problem with what people want to believe in as long as they are good people.

A lot of you are american so you might not know me as well but I would just like to ask people to please stop harassing me and calling me things I am not and making fun of things I can't help. My friends in this game are really really important to me and I have felt like just leaving TF2 and deleting my steam account after all these people declared me a racist. I only actually know 2 people in real life one is a really good friend and they other is a girl I used to go out with but they are the only people I talk to outside of the internet. I know I can just stop accepting friend requests but someone might actually be wanting to be my friend and I don't to turn them down and I don't want to stop TF2 because its where my friends are and i'm finding it hard to avoid these people. I try to ignore them but its hard cause I want to play and be able to cast and talk to people in mumble and on the forums without getting so much hate thrown at me. TF2 has helped me through life but because of my lisp and how people hate me so much on the forums i'm scared to keep playing this game. I just want these people (you know who you are) to try and be kind.

I re watched the vod of my 2nd cast to see how I did and this is what I saw when I looked at chat:

hate sheepy soooo much
admirable talk over sheepy
press 1 if you hate sheepy
1
i hate sheepy idiots love sheepy
i fucking hate sheepy god fucking damn
sheepy is a racist homo no ty
even cuties can be huge fucking fags
time out scrabb for loving sheepy
sheepy is a huge racist idiot homo
fuck sheepy stupid fucking anime loving idiot
I cannot support sheepy. His unmature voice is unsoportable
Saemzi: is this a comedy stream now?
Thalasheee: i enjoy listening to some downy kid with a crazy lisp

On my first cast my friend sent me this http://pastebin.com/NYGi8uYT Most of it is just people complaining about my voice and laughing at me. I don't know why he gave me this but I didn't want to cast again after that. Then I decided I need to be confident and coasted again and look above and see what happened.

I don't know what I've done to get him to get everyone to hate me so much. It's upsetting cause when I went to LAN everyone was really kind to me and came up to say high and people were giving me hugs. No one came up to me and called me an autistic weeaboo even when i was watching anime in the arena. Everyone was nice to me at LAN but why does everyone still seem to hate me online, Like I join a server and get:

droso: Hey sheepy! How's your speech impediment today? Can you say hi to me over voice chat please? I need my daily comedy
NiCO: You are retarded as fuck and you can die in hell
Izzy57000: Sheepy 12 yo ? LOL
Konrrr: you have all the autism that scotland needs in one person
Konr: you are probably the most autistic person in tf2
konr: sheepy isn’t a shit player, he’s just possibly the most autistic child that’s ever played the game.
Thalasheee: a u t i s m b o y s

Also I have a lot of trouble getting my point across cause of autisms so people need to understand I might not mean what I say, For example here is from a pastebin posted on another thread where people got really mad at me cause they took what I was saying out of context. Haffi got really mad as well and removed me from friends cause of it. Haffi said "sigur rós sucks" and so I replied saying "when you are older and listen to them properly you might change your mind". He seemed to then take that out of context cause he thought I was calling him to young to be able to listen to them, I didn't mean to say he was too immature or anything, What I meant by it was that when people get older they're music tastes change and I was basically saying he might like it in a few years if he gets more into that tyoe of music,

TLDR: I would like people to stop bullying me. People keep adding me on steam to just be mean and please understand I can't help being autistic so I act socially wrong sometimes. Also sorry about the lisp I will stop casting and talking on tftv interviews because all people want to do is make fun of it. I just want people to stop picking on me for being autistic constantly. You know who you all are but I don't want to talk to you.

The End.

Please explain what you even mean by this. I said in the conversation that he can think sigur ros is shit if he wants to but the critics rate them as a good band. Its up to the person to decide if critics mean anything

sheepy: as far as being objective
sheepy: they aren't shit
sheepy: only way you can be objective is by critic and user ratings
sheepy: and sigur ros rank high in both of them
sheepy: you might like Explosions in the Sky
sheepy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdiY6kijYHE
sheepy: this is the 1 post rock song that I would give to someone who can't get into the genre
sheepy: sigur ros take a lot of time to get into
sheepy: they have really long songs and they sound kinda weird
[R]eason Hafficool: im removing you
[R]eason Hafficool: your opinions are just so wrong