Wow. I didn't think of it that way. Apologizing to the people of this thread is something very hard to swallow but apologizing for the way I acted is a bit more understandable. I guess that it was the kid in me replying to the posts and my ego bringing me back.

I'm glad I did come back and read your post though AbsolutelyNobody. I'm completely willing to learn and grow to become better at what I'm trying to do. If this will help bring me closer to that goal then I'll do it.

My fanclub was a joke by friend of mine to be honest. It just kinda exploded since I was someone who pubbed a lot. Not that I was spamming invites n shit. I got the idea that if I ever decided to stream in the future that maybe I could use it to get a lot of viewers really fast and it would be easier. But thats something I just never got around to doing.. Whatever. I do use it as an insult though. To people who show hate towards me. I should stop doing that.

I should stop inviting people to hate on me like if it makes me stronger cause in reality I just brush it off and think its just going to blow over. Obviously it doesn't just go away.

So I apologize for the way I've acted towards you guys. I'm still in that young frame of mind that I can't just respect someone for no reason at all. So I was quite rude. I'm sorry about that. Being ignorant is never my intention but something I always end up doing.

According to these peoples logic if you beat me then I would've spammed insults.

I'm not though. I've only seen one IM player here flaming me. The rest have never played with or seen me outside of this forum. So again, what I said stands. If anyone who "might be a future teammates" takes these peoples words on how I am in game, comms and stuff of the like then maybe there not people who I should pay any mind too. Its like asking only the people who hate me how I am in game. It just doesn't work. So you show me respect and I'll show you respect. Oh I haven't earned it? Cause I don't have rep amongst comp players? cause I don't have youtube vids? Lol, My respect is based off of how you treat me.

You weren't trying to help tbh. You were vaguely insulting me in the beginning. Saying everything I did was poor when I'm pretty sure you never heard me or seen me play. Your not some savior of the guy who's getting flamed by people who got butthurt by him. So I'm not going to treat you as such.

So again, ask everyone who hates me what they think of me and OF COURSE I look like the bad guy. I look like an asshole who cares of nothing but talking down to anyone I can. xD I mean come on dude. You act like I'm so very new to competitive. omg pls sir halp me. No, Sorry buddy I'm not. I know enough people in comp and stuff to get in when I need too. I literally just made this thread to have some extra feelers. So think again.

Sorry for not laying on my stomach and taking everything in the ass. I was never that type of person and I never will be. I"m ignorant and I have a huge ego at times. Those are some of my flaws. You don't like it before you even meet me outside of this forum? Then your not worth my time. Please don't talk to me even if your looking for a starter, pocket, demo, or whatever. bai bai

I didn't come into this forum talking shit. They started flaming my lft thread. I haven't played on a team since last season and I'm pretty sure you haven't seen me play or how much I call. Also I've only talked shit to a few people to begin with and the rest of them are those who got invited to try and "teach me a lesson".

Like Huck for instance, he hates me cause he could not beat me in endif. I didn't talk shit, I didn't spawn camp, I didn't even say anything but gg while he got really mad cause he couldn't beat this no name person in endif. He started flaming chat saying that all I do is mge so I just shit talk back. Sorry, if your gonna talk shit your gonna get it back.

So you have it all backwards. They started talking shit to me and I just hit back harder. Yeah sure most people I've beat in mge could rape me in actual comp play but I never said I was badass at everything. I just merely taunted and shit talked those who did it to others and myself. I know I can be ignorant at times and I usually learn the hard way for most stuff. But you should research why they hate me, the shit they've posted before coming here and what there history is with me. Instead of just thinking "Oh, theres more then 2 people flaming this guy and calling him a dick, maybe he is one". Now that, is ignorant.

Btw I've never seen you around before so I know your not mentoring my steel team. Especially since I don't have one atm. My last steel team was BearFace. Unless your relic then you didn't mentor me.

Yeah I understand that. But back when I posted this lft thread I didn't want anything to do with ugc, kinda of an open wound so I posted lft here. But since then I've gotten a coach and played a bit of demoman, scout and medic so I'm smarter for it. I'm completely down to play pocket in open but I just don't feel like I'm ready for it. Letting a team down that picked me up believing in me would be a huge bummer. So like, thats held me back from really practicing my main in 6's for the last few months except in pugs and lower divs in ugc.

I want to learn the other roles of 6's. Learn what they are supposed to do and how they are going to react to certain things. So when I put my heart into my main and chosen role in 6's, I will be smarter and better for it.

Wow this thread helped me get donations for my new desktop. Did not think that would happen. Thanks guys. l8r

The fact you thought I was talking about you makes me chuckle

Everyone. You mean about say... 8 or 9. 4 of which have never even seen me ingame and going off of nothing but word of mouth. Pellolovely btw, got banned from center for being a complete douche.

I have yet to be banned from anything for that. A lot of people saying that I'm a dick are completely toxic players. Just cause a group of people are saying something does not mean its right. I mean, if you want to find out the type of person I am then just follow me around, add me or whatever. I don't care. But if your going to go off of a group of people like this and believe what they say then maybe your not someone I should give much thought too.

Don't you think? I mean.. Did you see the original post. This is a LFT thread. I was humble and was open that I was pretty shit and needed help growing. I stated my experience and I wanted a team. Turned into a flame war because I got the upperhand on someone who happened to find this thread and invited a bunch of other people to say these things. Its really easy to flame someone you don't know.

:)

Feeling empty inside? Do you feel the need to flame someone for not meeting your standards or is a better person then you try to be?

Come here! Where flaming is accepted and thrown right back at you!

http://steamcommunity.com/groups/AtomisksBigBlackBox

Follow me around, flame me when you win at mge, say my penis is small. We'll have a great time.

Wow, a lot of trolls that I know are posting on this. I guess if you beat a few shit talkers on mge and then taunt them afterwards they get REALLY mad. Holy shit. Honestly don't care what you think based off of a few people spreadin shit about me.

It makes me really happy to see that I've made such a lasting impression on a few douches that they made it a mission to try and soil my name. That's good. Sure, I may not get on an open team as easily, I may get shit talked when I'm learning new stuff and trying to get up. But when I do actually grow and become better you'll be raging inside while I'm holding my head up high.

I have pics of myself on FB of me and my wife. I"m quite brown and fat. Have a field day.

Assholes that I know for a fact are spreading shit: Huck, Cashews, Some pyro person who never keeps the same name, aaaand thats all I can think of right now.

Thanks for keeping me in mind whenever you get your ass kicked.

I wrote that announcement to see how many people thought I was the atomsk that's in a higher div then me. Lol. Not my fault you guys get confused.

Scout
I have decent DM and bad game sense. I'd really like to find a team so I can grow to be a better player. You can usually find me pugging, mgeing, or pubbing with friends. I have issues with certain mumbles with 60000's ports. Not all of them though.

Medic
I have decent game sense to know when to pop, when to back out and I can hit most of arrows. I have a good amount of medic hours in ultiduo and pugs but not a lot in actual matches or scrims since I mainly played pocket in competitive. I would love to get on a team that will help me grow.

My contact info.

http://steamcommunity.com/id/Atomisk34

I really need help on game sense and what I should be working on, how to properly train and what I should be doing in certain situations.

This is my steam information

http://steamcommunity.com/id/Atomisk34/

My DM is around High Silver or Low gold on a good day. I have no game sense at all. I need help with the very basics.