we hired him as a writer but he changed his name to hide his identity in his new role. he now goes by Aelkyr. please send help, Recurse is going to have me assassinated.

I wouldn't call it stalking, they're just making a thread out of his tweet. lange will always be a part of tf2 even if he isn't an active member of the community anymore. I doubt he has an issue with the creation of this thread.

dxlevel 81 makes a lot of particles brighter, including medi gun beams, etc
put -dxlevel 81 in launch options (would recommend putting your res in too as switching dxlevel will fuck with your res), then remove it after the first launch with it on as it slows down the launching time

even if he only played 1 qualifier game (although according to OP he also played s33 in d1, the data for which has now been lost), the fact that he made it onto a prem qualifier team shows that he is still prem qualifier level. he would obviously far outperform low medics and bring calls to his team that other low teams wouldn't have, would not be fair.
gemm makes a good point, just mix if u wanna play with your way higher skilled friends

CAN CONFIRM THERE WILL

I dropped out of secondary school (I believe the equivalent or close to your high school) early due to anxiety and the government wouldnt fund me to go to a special school (im autistic) because apparently I am in fact perfectly capable of fitting into mainstream school even though thats clearly not the case

not trying to make this into a sadpost but yeah its not really "a start" :)

he said on stream at one point that he doesnt support insomnia lan among other things (like pugchamp) because they "encourage stagnation". presumably he means in rulesets, though this doesnt really make sense.

I was never addicted, I just used tf2 to distract me from my real life issues

happy for jay

thanks to everyone for your input so far. will check back again tomorrow and maybe respond to some individual points. strong theme im getting so far is that working out/fitness is a good start which is something I already had in mind but thanks for reinforcing that idea. im a fat fuck so its probably a good start for both something to work on to feel a sense of achievement and also to improve my self esteem.

will try to keep it brief. kinda done with using tf2 to bury my depression. wanna actually start living again but dont know how or where to start (yes I know we're in the middle of a pandemic I mean more in general). I have no idea really what I want to work as or what I really enjoy doing. I have been out of school for ~3 years now and at this point have basically no irl friends (literally 1 person from school im still in contact with, I guess its a start). how do I start living tftv?

I know this might not be the best place to ask but I feel there are likely others here who can relate to letting tf2 distract them from their problems and losing everything irl because of it.

and to the people who will inevitably shitpost in this thread, please at least make your memes funny - im sure a good laugh is something we could all use right now :)

all advice appreciated, if anyone wants to talk to me directly I dont mind being dm'ed on discord JWB#6651

When Se7en was still playing I think it was more of b4nny being a little bitch and there not being any NA lans for Se7en to go to. right now we are of course in a pandemic. when corona clears up we should have lans again but whether froyo will ever travel to europe again is totally up in the air.

why does every one of these threads turn into alfa vs some circlejerk

not even a middie anymore

I would block him immediately