Death is something that always creeps around me. Virtually all of my male relatives and one of my best friends from college are already dead (oh boy).

It's gotten to the point where I don't really even get that upset about it anymore - it's to be expected. We'll, and everyone we've ever known, all eventually suffer the same fate.

Generally what I do if I'm feeling especially shitty, is sit down, and write out everything that I can remember about said person. Usually it's very stream of conscious-like, so as to attempt to recreate that person as best I could - as if I were attempting to write an actor instructions for a film. But in general that was something I mostly did when I was younger and death was more shocking to me. Generally only 10-20 minutes of that is required to get me back into my usualish mood lol.

Now I just go down to the liquor store, buy 2 40's, and make a day of it. I also tend to repeat that ritual should I remember the day (there are 3-4 folks I remember in such ways). I find not really talking about it and just numbing myself to my emotions is best for me. Video game and booze binge basically lol. Then it'll pass as acceptance creeps in.

My dad died when I was 4 - which pretty much was the end of my childhood and mom never really recovered. All of my male grandparents have died, a grandmother, one of my best friends (a cousin) committed suicide when she was 16, and one of my best friends in college randomly got pneumonia and died shortly after graduation. Each instance has gotten progressively less traumatic - sad in its own way I guess.

It doesn't necessarily have to be the roamer. It could be anybody so long as they die QUICKLY after the prior suicide (otherwise you're gonna' get burnt really hard by your respawn disadvantage).

You do it because the other team is probably disorganized in the wake of their suicide and they have 1 less set of eyes on your potential entry points.

Your objective would be to get a force, or an additional kill (without dying in this case).

It's perfectly viable.

As long as whoever counter suicides dies quickly there's no reason not to. If you're already running a sniper, have him go for the shot of his life, etc etc.

The way I'd like it done is just whomever is closest to the doors to get into the other team would go so as to keep the number of seconds you're alive moving to make a play to a minimum.

I'd wanted to try 6s for a while so I started lobbying with Sizzling Calamari - the rest has been a painful and good time.

badlands 181.... pl_goldrush 891....

hmm....

If you haven't already told the people that prescribed the medications to you, that you are continuing to have violent/suicidal thoughts you need to tell them asap. I don't know how old you are but that "side-effect" is extremely common with anti-depressants in teens and early 20's types(ironically). I had a cousin who had anxiety problems and the anti-anxiety meds caused her to spiral into a deep depression which ultimately ended in suicide where no depression was present prior - it came on so fast nobody could really do anything about it.

If you find that your therapist isn't helping - if you're using insurance, you need to talk about possibly changing doctors/therapists - you'll find that some people are just better than others (as in all things) and maybe that'd help too.

Fun fact:

Yz50, lans won with ggglygy as scout partner: 1
Lans won without Ggglygy as scout partner: 0

I think the statistics speak for themselves.

My tf2 will hopefully work this time (is confirmed to be working atm)

Marxists tf2 adventure.

3:30 PM play tf2. Get asked by fog to cast, accept.

10:50 pm, get STV, start tf2 - connect to info, game crashes no error message.

Attempt to restart like 20 times, game progressively crashes sooner and sooner.

Delete all the things :(

I always preferred Red Alert with Aftermath and Counter-Strike (heH!) for online play - but the campaign in Ra2 was pretty zany and they actually had decent actors for the live video segments - you know - I kinda miss live video segments in video games :/ Never really got the chance to play ra2 online a ton - mostly because it was a strange game for multiplayer lol.

I played OODLES of Red Alert 1 on Westwood online on my 28.8k though :D Wonderful time - Naval Conquests 7 hour 8 man free for all never forget.

I played AoE 2 ALL the time as a kid - started in like 5th grade when it came out. We used to play EVERY day after school. At its peak we started playing AoE for lunches - whoever lost had to buy the next day. I never lost #Longbowmentoostronk.

It's a slippery slope bsc because in the end we're all shit. Expectations will always exceed results. That either makes you give up or continue to be shit - and perhaps even marginally less shit than before.

I'd say just pub and live it up, but pubbing is literally awful recently (thanks Gabe). I've taken to playing war thunder.

A flank fight should go like this.

Roamer looks in an area. If he sees nothing he walks a bit closer hoping somebody will casually wander into his rockets. If he sees anything he shoots all of his rockets at it and runs away while buffed other players come in for the kill (assuming kills have not yet already been acquired by way of the aforementioned shoot-all-of-your-rockets technique). If the buffed others fail to acquire kills, roamer now has most if not all of his rockets back, and the things on the other side of the door will not be able to press the advantage they may have gained.

It's literally the easiest thing in the entire world especially given that most of the people you'll be shooting several rockets at can only take a few rockets to begin with.

While black box could potentially turn out in this situation, I fail to see how it could be *so* powerful that it would allow you to do things that you couldn't otherwise already do - only better due to the extra rocket, unless the other teams flank is just being bad.

It deeply upsets me that 1 player with a potential 45 hp buff on 3 rockets can "work" a flank. Not casting doubt on you remedy, but like... That's just pitiful. I'll pour a 40 out for tf2 and humanity's future.

Black box is good if you're not particularly intent on being effective or the other team's flank is bad at playing the flank. You only have 2 shots on a rocket jump, and 1 rocket on a double jump (which are often required to really get important things done). If you're relegated to spamming in the flank - what even are you doing with your life - just grind out some WoW characters or something or have a coke - I hear they're delicious.

Shotgun roaming is good for set stalemates (you know ubers will be even when you respawn) because any jump you would do, your health is going to be irrelevant anyways; the likelihood that you'll survive it for any great length of time is relatively low. But you do have the added ability to wildly shotgun at things after you use up your rockets - but you *will* require more heals in the interim, so you need to carefully manage critical heals so your team doesn't go crazy and your medic put you on his/her "list" of people to secretly blame for every failure.

generally speaking:

step 1. Pull out shotgun

Step 2. gleefully laugh as their jump gets all screwed up and they fall straight down

Step 3. Profit.