this has been on my mind for a while. i've noticed that all the recent discussion about grooming/child sexual misconduct cases in this scene has tended to be quite... flippant, to say the least. the recent ETF2L misconduct thread, for example, spawned a lot of tasteless diddy and epstein memes rather than consideration for the affected victims, and it made me feel as if the wider community is treating said cases as reputational liabilities for the perpetrators more than anything else.

personally, I've befriended grooming victims before and it's made me that, regardless of whether it happens on/offline, the scars that grooming leaves on people's mental health are always severe and long-lasting. obviously a joke about it isn't going to get anyone raped directly, but it is certainly indicative of a wider problem: how nobody recognises the real tragedies going on and just brushes off this community's paedophilia problem as inevitable monthly drama. I'm not expecting anyone to pool a GoFundMe together for the victims, but I think that it's in our wider interest as a community to treat these things with more gravity and less impudence -- and maybe, while we're at it, put pressure on comp leagues* to introduce safeguarding measures for under 18s?

please feel free to discuss this in the replies. I just want more preventative action to be taken against grooming in the comp scene, and would love to hear whether you guys have any specific ideas.

* not necessarily including ETF2L for the time being! they need to reestablish credibility on their own.

First bump in two months. Still looking guys. Don't let me grow lonely!

Bumping this! I'll basically talk to anyone at this point, I don't bite <3

My name is Ryan, I'm 17 and haven't played comp in two years but today I epiphanically remembered how much fun I had with my team back then -- dicking around in open, heal-hogging on roamer, just lost in the joy of human accompaniment -- and I felt a burning desire to do it all over again; not necessarily the comp stuff, but the friendship!!! I knew that if I were to try for that, I would better look here first :) Because although I don't play it at all any more, TF2 holds a special place in my heart and is the home to many of my best memories

My interests:
Literature: Italo Calvino, David Foster Wallace, Walt Whitman/adjacent transcendentalist writers e.g. Edward Carpenter, Jack Kerouac, WWI war poetry, Rumi, Kuzhali Manickavel, Arundathi Roy, Jang Eun-Jin, Oscar Wilde
(normie) Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers, TWICE, ILLIT, Beabadoobee, Japanese Breakfast, Coldplay, Faye Wong
(slightly weirder) Music: Animal Collective/Panda Bear, Spacemen 3, Beach House, Pavement, Bark Psychosis, Lightning Bolt, Hella, Gang Gang Dance, John Frusciante, Battles, Dot Hacker, The Durutti Column, Tortoise, Built to Spill, The Flaming Lips, Interpol, Colin Stetson, Dinosaur Jr, The Velvet Underground
Computer science: I LOVE competitive programming! I've done hundreds of LeetCode problems in C++ before, it's a favourite hobby of mine :D I also use Debian Linux and was on Gentoo for over a year

add me on Discord (my username is ifonawintersnightatraveler) if you want to talk! much love, thank you for reading this <3

Gonna prank Rahmed when he brings back Rahmixes

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vacillate is a good one, love the Latin undertones :)
I'd go for:

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• oneiric
  
• viscous
  
• tender
  
• otiose
  
• anhedonic
  
• epiphanic
  
• erudite
  
• nascent/nascency

I'm not entirely sure how but I can confirm that changing your username to delete_my_account doesn't do the trick

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I'm interested!

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anything from Loscil - Plume

hot dogs and hand grenades?

rando rage

the only reason i'm saying this is because i think some of these issues (which aren't necessarily you're fault - please don't feel guilt over this) have transferred onto your online appearance. i don't want people to hurt or mock you for that. you can look into therapy as others have suggested; this is just my two cents on the matter :)

Brock, I think you have an unhealthy relationship with your work. it seems like you highly depend on your performance and place too much pressure on yourself to be "the best". it's not an easy journey but i'd recommend that you think about how these elements of your life, such as work, friends, etc., relate to you being able to find peace with whatever flaws you might have