Young_Sanitylaundry list of improvements
I feel like part of the issue here is how you try to fit into groups.
You're a people pleaser. You are young and are still learning how to fit in.
And that's an angle you've found works for you right now
You've conditioned yourself to have the whole "loud/annoying = funny" going on because it "works".
Essentially an online class clown, looking for approval by saying dumb shit and yelling.
And that's fine. Everyone knows multiple people like you. Or has known in the past.
Over time you'll find new angles on how to approach friendships. It's part of growing up and it's not something you rush.
You're literally a child. You'll learn. I hope people don't see this thread and now expect you to be a "grown up". Because that's not what this is.
This list helps you way less than you think. It lacks the nuance that comes with experience. An experience you won't gain by asking others about it
You can't rush a process that takes most people decades.
You have burned some bridges. Everyone does at some point.
Over time you learn to understand where you messed up and become a better person out of it.
And you'll gain friendships in which you won't have to feel like you need to stand out just to fit in.
Ironically, this nerd essay also is very unhelpful. Just like the list you'll understand this entire thread in a couple years after having figured it out by yourself.
Don't be toxic, the rest will come eventually (see how unhelpful this actually is despite it being correct advice. it's something you can't teach someone else)