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#102 Music Taste Rate Thread in Music, Movies, TV

http://imgur.com/a/jJ4pt
I need to listen to more albums
edit: i forgot to add Forged Prescriptions by Spacemen 3 which is arguably my favorite album of all time

mmrarktehttp://i.imgur.com/BtQ8L8T.jpg
hey alder can u rate me :-)

I'm not alder but I like the albums i recognize

Dyl4Nhttp://i.imgur.com/rDgaGDt.jpg
Is it obvious that I love rap?
Also nothings in order, just my current top 4 im listening to and lots of others I love

I don't understand Damn being in top 4 but Its subjective i guess.

posted about 7 years ago

#302 tftv safe space (no harassment plz) in Off Topic

gatsanif she agrees to be ur gf surely ur good enough for her :)FuxxrzrI know its retarded, but for some reason I'm so nervous around my girlfriend and I don't feel as if I'm good enough for her. Ive thought about breaking up with her but that would put me where I was before, a complete mess. I feel trapped.Listen, motherfucker: your girlfriend is an independent human being capable of her own thought process. Let's assume you're not some manipulative dickhead who's holding her emotions hostage in a self-absorbing display of egoism. If you are then there's your problem, but I know you're not that. Perhaps you may get this impression because you see yourself in such a negative light and her in such a positive one that you simply cannot fathom why anyone like her would ever love you if not because they were being held against their will, but odds are that this is wrong and you're being paranoid. Point is: if she didn't reciprocate some form of affection, she wouldn't be your girlfriend now would she? She's capable of making her own decisions and acting upon them. If she's still by your side then odds are she considers you at the very least "good enough".

That's a step above complete lack of self-esteem now isn't it?

Ah but you want to be more than just "good enough". The idea of dancing along the line of being the bare minimum to keep the relationship afloat terrifies you. You feel like it could break at any moment. One small little bullshit on a particularly bad day and bang, it's over. This stresses the fuck out of you. You don't want it to be so unstable.

You should begin by coming to face with some truths:
1) Most people consider themselves to be worth less than they actually are
2) You have unlimited access to all the bullshit that you've done wrong, because you lived it
3) You don't have unlimited access to all the bullshit other people have done wrong

Believe it or not, but odds are part of her wonders what makes you think she's good enough for you. Just like you are competing with a million other men that she could be more interested in, she is also competing with a million other women. She could find someone stronger, taller, more confident, more wealthy, more funny, who dresses better, who lives a more interesting life. Likewise she believes you could find someone who's more beautiful, sexier, wittier, ambitious, confident. At least some form of fear is reciprocated because love is essentially the desire of wanting someone else to accept you. This goes both ways.

This should hopefully make you more confident. Confidence goes a long way and I emphasize it here because self-doubt if your enemy. Confidence, even without reason, automatically makes you stronger. Self-doubt, even without reason, makes you weaker. If you let yourself fall into this vicious circle that you should doubt yourself because you're (in your mind) undesirable, this in turn makes you appear even weaker and thus less desirable. This is why you feel like being nervous is a rational reaction when it isn't. You look at all the ways you're sabotaging yourself without being conscious that the source of this sabotage is precisely your self-doubt.

Ruminate long and hard on these points and eventually you will see that you will have few reasons to be nervous and see that all and any problems will be nothing more than obstacles that you can tackle and solve directly, as opposed of feeling as if they are insurmountable by nature.

You will also come to realize that breaking up with her (and thus causing misery for the two of you) instead of working to improve your situation is idiotic. It's understandable that you feel that way, you love her and want what is best for her above what is best for you, but that doesn't make it any less stupid.

Thank you, both of you. I realize I'm being bit a idiotic and I think I'm going to reflect on myself now and try to work on these points.

posted about 7 years ago

#296 tftv safe space (no harassment plz) in Off Topic

I know its retarded, but for some reason I'm so nervous around my girlfriend and I don't feel as if I'm good enough for her. Ive thought about breaking up with her but that would put me where I was before, a complete mess. I feel trapped.

posted about 7 years ago

#2 My favorite restaurant franchise in Off Topic

what

posted about 7 years ago

#1580 Do you like the song above? in Music, Movies, TV

I've never been a fan of this sort of music because it makes me want to bash my head into a hardwood desk, but out of this genre of music i like this one probably the most so far

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=91v84BpXqXA
rad jazz covers are rad

posted about 7 years ago

#1578 Do you like the song above? in Music, Movies, TV

the music video was rad and the song was pretty cool but a little slow in the beginning

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_fM79Aoms9I
good good not bad

posted about 7 years ago

#1572 Do you like the song above? in Music, Movies, TV

Never really been into this sort of music but this sounds pretty good for its style.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCHTX_pgw6A
since someone mentioned bbng

posted about 7 years ago

#1567 Do you like the song above? in Music, Movies, TV

gonna restart this thread because I like it

I really like the sampling but felt like the whole song dragged a little. Kinda wished the piano sample changed up somewhere in the song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvZJI8rerWA

posted about 7 years ago

#64 TF2 related 3 word story in Off Topic

ｉｍｓｏｒｒｙｉｍｎｏｔｇｏｏｄｉａｐｏｌｏｇｉｚｅｆｏｒｍｙｅｇｏｐｌｅａｓｅｆｏｒｇｉｖｅｍｅ, ｉｍｊｕｓｔｅｕｒｏｐｅｅａｎ

posted about 7 years ago

#62 most underrated names of all time in Off Topic

dank lord 1337

posted about 7 years ago

#40 how do i get rid of an object? in Off Topic

crypt_where you high when you typed this out

*were

posted about 7 years ago

#9 Xiaomi Headphones Pro in Hardware

I haven't tried the xiaomis, but I can definitely recommend another fantastic cheap pair of earbuds.

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00Y0F6IBG/ref=oh_aui_detailpage_o00_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

these sound fantastic, I don't know how long they will last but I really enjoy their sound and they could be worth it because they are only 13 bucks.

posted about 7 years ago

#132 what do ya'll do outside of tf2? in Off Topic

I haven't done anything but study and rock climb for the last few month

posted about 7 years ago

#1565 Do you like the song above? in Music, Movies, TV

dot_that was a trip damn. i didnt mind listening to that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-wDXpzU_Gg

this song make me want to be baller

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UFmrC_W6AXg
i like french girls

posted about 7 years ago

#1559 Do you like the song above? in Music, Movies, TV

dot_that was fucking terrible wtf
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FRWEQMjnwqw

May not be a rap fan but this was pretty good. I'm very glad that it wasn't mumble rap and the sample on was pretty cool.

Talking about sampling this is sampled pretty often
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xWVW55os5g0

Edit:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUN6gxQNJ1E
song that has the sample

posted about 7 years ago