800 1.6

Contemplating going a bit higher idk

I promise, I don't mean this in a patronizing way, but this is the type of problem that is best worked through with a therapist or psychologist.

What you are describing when you think to yourself things like "I'm never gonna get better" is what's called "Automatic negative thoughts", which suck but are pretty common. Feeling completely crushed inside when u play poorly in an extremely low stakes environment like a pub is a dispoportionate emotional response which I'm sure is very unpleasant. Fortunately, these are things which can be dealt with using DBT (a model of psychotherapy) very effectively.

If you can't afford it or don't want to go that far,, then I suggest looking up some info on DBT. u can Google like "Emotional Regulation DBT" or "Distress tolerance DBT" and you can find some resources to help you combat the reactions you're having, and learn more about what's happening and maybe learn some new skills to address it

What you're describing is common but it's not the way it has to be, and even if you decide TF2 is too much of an emotional trigger for it to be worth pursuing as a dedicated hobby, I can guarantee emotional regulation and distress tolerance are skills which will benefit you in all areas of your life.

looking for someone to bounce short questions off of about specific maps, positioning, utilizing advantages, minimizing losses with disadvantages, etc.

demo reviews or comms+demo reviews would also be helpful, but really anything u can offer to help would be awesome.

Playing in IM this season.

Yes, charity existed, but it is and never will be a replacement for universal coverage. Access to care was sparce, what care you did get was intermittent, and death from preventable illnesses was high. The US has a garbage system regardless of ideology, the Netherlands has a functional mostly privatized (and subsized + regulated) healthcare system that isn't bloated by totally unregulated drug prices, medical device prices, doctor salaries, middleman fees taken by insurance companies, lack of choice in insurance (you get what ur employer gives you for the most part).

ok but fr this time?

meatshot class, starter, im/main or something

can i get this in person in Portland somewhere?

I was having massive issues with the game feeling really choppy and I couldn't figure out why, until recently i decided to try windowed mode (without the noborder setting) and suddenly it feels smooth as butter. fullscreen and windowed noborder both have the same issue of choppiness.

Anyone else dealt with this? if so, any solutions?

getting the itch, only as backup but would be fun to be on a roster again.

can play scout or medic

Of course there's a reason. There's a reason for ISIS bombing civilians, even that's not "irrational". I don't see why its that relevant for you to be stating it, its basically a given that people being scared is fueling it.

Yea the current runner-up candidate in the polls for the Republican prez nomination (behind Trump) is a man-made climate change denier.

I love the funk/jazz styling of the album. That said, this album is much heavier in content and more "conscious" which makes it much less accessible than GKMC which was basically the perfect hip hop crossover album. Only listened to it 3 times so far but I'm a fan and the lyricism and production are top notch. Also thundercat on almost every song is pretty awesome.

Those are for league fees, you still need to have premium.

I have an 8350 and I only dip below 120 in pubs.

The FX-4300 just isn't good enough to hold consistent 120frames in fights. TF2 is 100% CPU reliant, not sure why you thought upgrading your graphics card would help.

It's basically a windows version of mouseaccel. Most people tend to think accel is bad because it's inconsistent, but some people use it. However, even if you like using accel, it's probably better to use adjustible ingame accel or an outside client that's more consistent (http://teamfortress.tv/thread/5067/ql-accel-driver).