stop being anxious over everything

prob one of my last bumps til registration closes

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happy bday \

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team died, bump

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xcom enemy unknown is super fun and entertaining, has a lot of replay value from my experience
also i would reccomend buying the enemy within dlc

unbreakable duo

would you rather play your important match in a map that you and your team have played countless times over the years or the new map you have only played like a few times at most

again, how do they expect to play new maps in league play for feedback if people can just choose to not play them

from last night's new map showcase, this seemed like a favorite to replace a map from the current esea map pool from the discussion that happened after the matches were over, so it interested me to dl the map and give it a run with what it seemed to be the fastest rollouts for middle
prob some of these were already discovered by the ones that played or watched the streams last night but hopefully it helps somebody, sorry if i got anything wrong

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_2wmB_zdtM

it's been a rough couple of months for me personally but i think my recent dissapointment in myself in this preseason for not getting in an IM team has been the one that has made me angry at myself rather than sad.

after 3 years of playing in a 30 fps machine i finally builded a new pc that i thought would be the thing that truly makes me play better and do something significant, that's the main reason why i had such a massive drive to play tf2 next season and i still do.

but after quite a few tryouts, i'm just so pissed at myself after all this, my first tryout for an IM team went pretty smoothly but they already had a med in mind before they even tried me out so it was kinda pointless.

my second tryout went pretty smoothly aswell i think which ended up in asking me to play again next week but i just, choked. i played horrible and i tilted the entire team because of it and it still haunts me to this day (even if it wasn't that long ago).

just like that the goal i had for myself which was do ok in IM (not even do well like 8-8 or something like that just do ok like 6-10 or something) was gone and not possible anymore.

and for the open teams that asked me to tryout, one of them i did really well but because of internal conflict and someone taking something too personal, i didn't make it and for the other ones i got the leader had to go to the hospital and when he did get home he couldn't find enough people to tryout so i guess that's over.

after all this stuff happened, i started doing really bad in games and keep dying and i keep getting mad at myself because i'm letting the team down with me being so fucking shit and my head starts hurting because of all this pressure and anger i put to myself.

i was thinking to make a team or try to lead one but the thing is i don't have any friends that would be willing to play with me, like everyone is too good for me or won't be able to stand playing with me for more than 30 mins so why bother.

i'm just mad at myself and i wanna take a break from all this bullshit, i think mentally i'm too fucked atm to play medic calmly like i normally do.

you can maybe say there's still 20 days left til registration ends but keep in mind christmas + new years nobody is gonna scrim and do tryouts, let alone, make teams in that time so basically i think a week out of those 20 days basically doesn't exist, i'd like to be proven wrong but who knows.

i just wanna play in a team and have fun and improve in it with everyone else.

esea_push
from my experience, it sets the winlimit to 4 rounds instead of the regular 5, so you should keep that in mind but it's not hard to switch the winlimit.

tony :3

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he died more than 20 times he lost elo

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