I'm really hyped for DS3 as DS1 was one of the best games i've ever played!

zowie mice are always good also g303 and g400s (if you are able to find one) are two pretty rock solid mice

i suck and im gay

i played with plan when he had a walmart mouse and a terrible computer on my first open team so idk how good he is now but he was a super funny and cool guy in mumble when i played with him and from what i've heard hes pretty good !!

the pushing out of last video is really really useful, thank you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thqee-cW9DI

you are literally overreacting to the most harmless shit post ever my man, relax lol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjc6MVh1L5E

i am vote for japanese stutter girl

a borderline sociopath.

my good pal azn in IM and reimu in invite.

cat is real cool and deserves a cool team ! :d

I've really wanted to write about this for awhile, actually.

When I was in my 6th grade year in middleschool I stopped taking ADHD medication because I didn't need to take it anymore because I think my ADHD was gone. In turn it slowed down my metabolism, made me feel really sleepy so I slept through tons of classes and caused me to be way overweight than normal due to my metabolism slowing down. I didn't have any friends because I was a shy kid. My brother constantly beat the shit out of me, for reasons I just didn't understand and on top of that made fun of me for my weight so I became insecure. Being fat and shy and having a brother that was much taller and older than me, there wasn't much I could do in response to him. My mother was constantly working because my father and my mom are divorced and she needs to take care of me and my brother so she couldn't stop my brothers acts. Also, even more recently my aunt bullied me constantly. So growing up I kind of became fucked in the head. I developed severe social anxiety, I was suicidal and extremely depressed.

Unfortunately, as a result I became so isolated and decided to shut myself out and play video games. Any game that appealed to me, it didn't matter I just needed a distraction. So when I decided to quit runescape when I was thirteen, I got sucked into TF2 when I was fourteen. However, In my opinion though getting sucked in wasn't worth it. honestly if I could turn back I'd get help, not get sucked into video games and do something way more fulfilling with my time.

Please, like pellovely said. If anyone is going through similar stuff, you do not need to waste your fucking life playing video games unless it is your passion and you have some potential to be best player ever, or maybe its your hobby, who knows. But if you can help it, just don't get addicted. It's never worth it.

When I was younger, I didn't have anyone to tell me to get help, I didn't know how to get help and most importantly I was too afraid to speak up to anyone. Don't do that though, I'm telling you now if anyone is going through something similar, muster up the courage and tell someone. Talk to someone like a parent. Or any adult at your school anyone who can get you help. Be optimistic have a drive that you can get through it while talking someone who can get you help and you will get through it, I promise you.

As of writing this I've been feeling a lot better about my life since I've talked to my mom about it and I'm getting some help soon. My brother has since moved away and I'll be going to college soon as I've turned eighteen a few days ago.
With that, I'm probably going to spend less time playing TF2. I don't need to be invested in it anymore because I feel better. I don't want to spend every waking moment playing TF2 and have 120 hours in the past 2 weeks. If the circumstances call for it, I might just drop the game all together.

So, sorry to anyone that I've made feel like shit because I just don't know how to handle my emotions. All of you guys on this fourm are honestly are all so fucking cool and It sucks that I've lashed out to so many people, even if you didn't take it personally, I'm still sorry and I wish I could do something to make up for how I've acted.

I just hope everyone has a great season and fun season in esea or whatever tournament you're in, I hope we all have a healthy competition.

Edit: Made some revision's to my post.

but i like csgo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SuWdggpr3Os