Of course its untrue I made a mistake typing to fast. I have of course mentioned i'm autistic on the forums somewhere but I wouldn't say it unless it was relative to the topic cause like I said I feel embarrassed about it. What I mean is I'm trying to go about using my autism to get people to feel sorry for me or anything. I'm not looking for sympathy. i just think people should know why i act the way I do sometimes. Of course a lot of time it's no excuse if i''m being really immature or being a dumb troll. I just think people should know about it cause I don't want to lose the few friends I do have. Like last season with Planet Express where everyone thought I kicked half of the team. They actually left and me being autistic did play its part because it was just meant to be a fun team in high but I wanted us to go prem and started to put pressure on everyone, although I wasn't 100% to blame for them leaving. I just want people to know I will make a big effort and hopefully we can do well in prem next season if I can keep cool.

sheepy youre a cute dude and people love you but you post some (be it intentional or not) hateful or ignorant shit on the forums and the only way people on the internet know how to deal with hate is to send hate back (in a small community like tftvs this goes a long way in hurting your reputation)
pick your battles and feel free to disagree with what other people say but respect that they are entitled to their opinion just like you are to yours, and consider that sometimes its not worth trying to convince someone else or to defend yourself
also acknowledge some people are insufferable retards who you can just tune out altogether
you can feel free to add me if you want someone on call to listen to you whenever you feel down

everyone gets insulted dude move on with life holy shit

I never gave a fuck, but now that I read this text I can give a fuck less Kappa

"the times where u post 6 attention seeking ass meme lines in eutf2pugme come to mind"

I have no idea what you are talking about. Please explain what you are trying to mean by this.

Also about nico and the frenchies, It goes back but NiCO has hated me like really really hated me because I beat him in mge and then half way through the 2nd round I had to go (my steak was ready), He thought I had left to annoy him or something and i even told him i had dinner but he got super pissed. Which is ironic because he used to just leave the server if he was 3 points away from losing. You have all seen the pictures NiCO hates losing in MGE and when we played 6s he would taunt me after every kill and tg in chat. Him doing all this just because I left to eat food in MGE made me really dislike him so I had an unhealthy hatred for him as I thought he was immature and we just kept trying to make each other mad. So of course the Frenchies were on his side so they all hate me as well, i'm not just saying this but I think it was started by NiCO having a massive ego and bring immature and me being autistic or something cause I should have just ignored him when he was trying to wind me up.

Anyway a week before LAN he called me a retard so I was interested what he would do at LAN, First the frenchies came (izzy and those guys). Izzy shook hands with me and told me to kneel, I was confused and just laughed, I then went over to meet NiCO and held out my hand to shake and told him who I was. He seemed extremely shy not even saying anything and he shook my hand very lightly and sat back down again. Just a week before he called me a "fucking retard" and of course at lan unsurprisingly he was like a scared child. You can see now why I have a problem with NiCO but nowadays I just ignore him the best I can and I don't have to play the izzy or that group anymore cause they just brought out the worst in me.

Just talking about your casting/streaming side.

Whenever you become a public figure, you are automatically a target for harassment, hate, mean-spiritedness and people who generally compensate for something missing in their lives by trying to ruin yours. It sucks, and it represents some of the most tragic and vile nature of humanity. However these people aren't targeting you as an individual, they are targeting you as a public figure, a caster.

I won't tell you to keep casting, I wont tell you to stop. You have to make the decision yourself. All I can tell you is that I used to cast/help with production years ago, and I stopped because of this. I regret that decision and I don't want to see you regret yours.

Some feedback will be useful, others completely immaterial to your ability as a caster. You have to learn to filter out the latter, even if it is some of the meanest shit you have ever heard. There are other casters with a lisp/slurred speech/accent that are strong, prominent, loved casters as well. I am sure they get some shit, but they either don't read twitch chat (which is basically a cess-pool of terrible people and /memes/) or they filter out what isn't relevant/useful.

I wish I could give you more or better advice. Don't run away from your friends, online or otherwise, because some bad people want to ruin things for you. And don't write up things like this, which draw attention to the fact that they are getting to you. <3

You just posted in the mass shooting thread earlier today about how dumb americans are for having guns. You seem like the kind of person that talks a lot about something they know little of.

I have 0 involvement with tf2 except for watching it but you just seem like a huge cunt from what I've seen on the forums

Posting something on the internet without insulting someone
here

Sheepy I honestly don't know what you expect to get for saying someone is not intelligent enough to understand your music taste because they need to become more mature, and the next day you shitpost away like it's nothing.

also

Stop talking absolute shit then. You say all these things in twitch chat and on here yet you think its mean that people reply to them with their own opinions? Yes i understand that you suffer from autism but some of the stuff you say is obviously going to get replied to with hate. If you dont want the hate etc then stop saying the shit you usually say, just think about what you wanna say before you have to put up with people not liking it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6aQBWMN7UE

Bona please explain the quotes? I was calling out beavern at dw because he was under preforming in most of his games. I was really doing it because I was a little jealous that I wasn't playing there when I consider myself a better scout atm (once he gets back into it he will be better again)

I don't see what the quotes have to do with each other and I think the 2nd quote makes perfect sense

say something smart and people won't call you stupid

Why do you call people out on something that (eventhough it is true) you do because it makes you feel good, isn't that exactly why you made this thread? because people use things you said against you and now you're crying on forums. I just can't fathom how you keep doing this over and over, post shit, people telling you to shut up because you post dumb stuff and then cry on the forums..

if somebody shittalks you in private - ignore them, it's much easier to do than in public or on forums, just remove the guy and that's it, gon't get into discussion that is not pleasant to you
that pastebin with haffi talking about sigur ros was somehow painful to read because of both Haffi not taking this dialogue seriously and just poking you with "you like bandname - shit taste in music" and you trying to get him into something he's not interested in, don't try to prove something to somebody if he doesn't want to, just move along
and yes, those who add people from forums to just tell how they don't like them are truly idiotic

You have never spoken to me once in your life. We have never been in the same mumble or typed anything to each other yet you still dislike me because you are great at taking things out of context. I was even told you denied the scout we have been pcwing with to merc in our official not because of his skill but because you just don't like me, despite not knowing anything about me at all really. So you are now saying you hate me even more because of twitch chat? Because I was supporting top5 to beat you guys or something. Sorry but you denied a merc and then spammed all your binds in chat after the game and you get upset because I type 4Head in chat when you lose?

Hey man, you probably don't know me since I quit a while ago, but I still browse these forums once in a while and this thread caught my eye. I think that it's brave that you're putting your heart out like this. The internet is a really shitty place and this relative anonymity leads to a bunch of shitheads. Unfortunately, if you're putting yourself out there as a streamer/caster, you will become a target. It's because people are fucking assholes who want to make themselves feel better and put others down in any way, so they try to shit on those who are doing what they can't or won't do. Don't take it too much to heart, if you can.

When I used to stream, I got a lot of people calling me a fatass, Asian chink, etc. because of what I looked like. I rode the tide and started using it to be more entertaining for the twenty fucking regular viewers I had. I used it as motivation to become better and lose weight, and it gave me a thicker skin. Just remember that there is no actual lasting damage being done besides some silly words that aren't even well thought out. Literally all surface level stuff. Use it to become stronger. But don't let it show too much because it acts as a catalyst for more hate.

I also want to lecture all you nerds who think that you're being funny by pretending to be cool on the internet.

When I was a full part of this community, I loved how open and welcoming everyone was. This is the best competitive community I've ever been a part of, and I hoped that that would keep up as the scene grew and continues to grow. The TF2 community is full of some truly amazing people, and some of the best friends I'll ever have are those I've met while playing TF2. I remember all the shitposting and clowning around on the forums and in-game, but I don't ever remember a time that I felt personally attacked at a deep level (getting cut from teams/disbanding is naturally part of the game but I bl0w so ya know). Fucking chill and stop being dicks. Keep it Gucci, this community's roots are better than any other game's; show some respect and be better people.

This website would be more active if everyone posted a thread for every time someone hurt their feelings.

Sorry but who is using things I said against me? Are you talking about the hafficool and me pastebin. I think he looks like just as big an idiot as I do in that but we got over it ages ago and met at LAN and we are friends now. Also

"Sheepy I honestly don't know what you expect to get for saying someone is not intelligent enough to understand your music taste"

Did you read anything I wrote on this thread? In the pastebin Haffi misinterpreted what I was saying when I said "he should listen to it again when youre older" This has nothing to with intelligence. I was trying to tell him he might like it when he's older because peoeples music tastes change. Why is no one listening to me.

I'm pretty sure this is just trolling, but in case it isn't. this is the worst decision to make, the more attention you get on the internet the more people don't like you, and it happens that people that don't like you tend to be pretty vocal

Just play the game and don't entertain people that talk shit. It helps if you don't lead a team so you can just turn up and play with your mates with say_texttime 0 or whatever the command is. In a months time someone else who made a few bad decisions is gonna be the focal point.

It's shit like this

When will you stop hating on Muslims for being Muslims just because you think all of them are tied to Islamic State?

I was simply offering some advice sheepy. Yes you are right we havent spoken anything to each other, but opinions of people can be formed through their actions not iust simply from talking to them. The whole of ownage squad denied your merc not just me. We had some form of vote on it and I think only Drackk was fine in allowing the merc. What I said wasnt even really said in any context surrounding this or anything to do with me and my team. I didnt even see what you put when ownage lost as i never watched it past 5/10 mins into it as it was the most dreadful cast ive ever heard. Youre wondering why people are giving you shit and Ive given you an answer. Whatever though you can always contact me through steam to discuss this but ill stop contributing to this thread as you seem far too stuborn to take on any advice.

I didn't make this thread because "someone hurt my feelings". This has way more to do than that. I've been bullied all my life at school because of my lisp and the autism and I want to play TF2 to Escape from all that. I'm getting people adding me on steam though and harassing me because I said I didn't like their religion, every time I talk people laugh at me. Not just random scrubs top prem players and a lot of people in prem have been really mean to me when all i've done is looked up to them. I used to ask smzi to play mge with me and I remember he just removed me then made fun of my lisp in chat and then I got asked to into an interview and this happens right after we got 5-0d so i'm already feeling down and I have never done anything to smzi except praise his scout play and ask to mge him. I can usually laugh it of but these people have treated me like shit because of my voice since I started playing TF2. It's not just my voice they find anything they can to pick on me cause they know i'm autistic and they were driving me away from TF2.

Thalash and Tviq used to always call me an autistic dribbling faggot who's a downy with a stupid lisp. They did they to me for no reason, I never even talked to them before they started doing this and they kept doing it when I was on a server. Since I started playing competitive TF2 I have been treated like shit because my voice is different. I'm sick of seeing people praise people like thalash smzi or tviq as nice guys when they were trying to make me quit tf2 for good and were so mean to me as often as they could be.

How many times do I have to say I have no problem with all muslims. I just have a problem with Islam as a religion. Most muslims are ok but a lot of them rape and kill and the quran doesn't help anything.

I was told that you decided not to allow prez because of people (including you) not liking me for some pointless reasons. If that's not the case then I was fed misinformation but your team still disallowed a merc who you knew we really needed considering how badly the team was going with everyone leaving mid season and having no scout at all. Then you spam binds in chat after winning because your team knew it would just upset me more. So of course i'm going to support top5 in chat.

I'm sorry though I don't talk shit in twitch chat any more than the rest of us. You would need to hate 80% of the TF2 community if that's the reason you dislike me. Also when I was saying stuff like "why are top5 in playoffs" It was an obvious joke since we got knocked out.

A lot of people from every religion rape and kill; bringing this up is such a loaded statement.

i think you are a cool guy sheepy and you get a lot of shit for no reason, but that is the definition of islamaphobic and is very poorly informed. you say you were raised in a christian family but no one is blaming you for shooting up black churches or raping hundreds of underage boys and supporting the spread of aids in africa. spouting these sorts of uninformed opinions are why people have a problem with you.

Precisely. Also, a small minority isn't "a lot". Just because you hear bad things from the media about select "religious" people that do bad things does not mean everyone in that religion are the same.

If that were the case, I'd be afraid to leave my own house due to all the white people that are wandering around.

youre a clown, this thread is a joke. youre a joke.

Maybe hire someone to do your PR for ya