I want to be ok at it

Taking a step back and spending my time more wisely.

I used to no-life this game for a long time, and I got burnt out recently.

Taking the time off (stop pugging, working on the highlights, having other hobbies) has helped me want to try harder for those times that I do play scrims/matches.

i really like playing medic now

Because it's fun. I play quite a few competitive games fairly often (rocket league, csgo, overwatch), but tf2 is still consistently the one that is the most enjoyable to play and watch, by a wide margin.

Tf2 has become such a part of my daily routine I really don't know what I'd do without it.

I'm still playing because comp Splatoon crashed and burned

I haven't yet found a solid stable team that lasts for more than one season. So that keeps me playing until I find that.

Also seeing my best friends every year at iseries

Force of habit and the friends that I have that still play

people have, for some reason, bad prejudice of TF2.

I've watched various overwatch streams, and many times people have asked the streamer's opinion of TF2 and most of the time the answer is something like this "never played it but it looks like shit"

i suck and wanna be good

& ive met a lot of great people/friends through this game

cuz it's the greatest game ever made. tf2 and quake forever fam

all kinds of flashy plays are like drugs to me, and pulling them off rewards my brain by stimulating it with endorphins and dopamine, i also eventually want to make more flashy plays, leading to me overextending quite a decent amount, offclassing at inappropriate times and generally constantly sacking hoping to give my team an advantage(since that fails 2/3 times i usually fuck my team up by putting them at a 5v6 situation).

ever since ive been playing more comp i only constantly trying to pull this shit off on pubs and being like three times more passive playing comp as i used to be

fucking airshots

rikachu makes funny noises into the mic and it makes me laugh that's about it

this + they'll regret it

All of my friends are better than me so I can't play MM or lobbies without looking like a retard so I want to get better.

Then what? Just curious.

I don't have anything better to do and enjoy talking to the people I know

don't really have any motivation to reach prem at any point, I'd rather play with people I like- unfortunately I have an ability to fold almost every team I'm in

Watching banny vods whenever you pug against him and win

Proving shittalkers wrong

The skill ceiling is very high and I have yet to reach it.

https://youtu.be/K0K46C82v9o?t=1m i wanna be famous
will never happen though so I guess the only thing keeping me in is I wanna improve with a team and TF2 is fun

I used to play because I wanted to get better and be a top med. However in the past couple of years, my mindset has changed completely. I no longer care about that and only play to relax and have fun with friends. Though it seems that each year the friends I've made play less and less, so in turn I play less and less, and that leads to me making less friends, and it's all just a sad downward spiral

Firstly I love the game. I genuinely think it's amazing and have since I installed it 2 years ago.

Secondly, watching players like Clockwork, Shrugger etc, reinvigorates my desire to be able to do what they can do and more. After watching them play I want to move and aim like they can. and they only way to do that is to keep playing.

Getting beat is also a reminder that I need to play more. I played comp for the first time the other day. We won but I bottomscored as demo (in fairness I missed the first mins because i was trying (and failed) to join mumble). I killed more than died, had some decent point presence and area denial, but I saw much better players in that game alone, which makes me want to match them and play more.

I regret the times when I disregarded the feelings of others in my past so I main medic to restore the karmic balance in my life.

this shitty game gets easier every day lmao

Airshots

literally nothing, i just get bored sometimes and come back to this game and stomp some pubs/realize pubs are easy and go play lobbies/lobbies are easy but i dont have the time/patience to commit to a team/i dont want to socialize with nerds that much anyway. i guess its the only internet community i feel like i somewhat belong to after all this time though.

cant reverse what ive done already to my life

the dream of winning prem and for the shits and giggles