filing for unemployment has been a fucking nightmare and because of a poorly worded question I now have to spend the rest of eternity praying I get good enough RNG to get through on a phone call to the NYS department of labor to correct an error on my pandemic unemployment insurance application. Have been trying for the last 3+ weeks to file but the website was broken until last week with sessions timing out for me sometimes in seconds

I am slowly watching not only my interest in the game I love dwindle, but the game itself die a slow and painful death. I've played this game longer than I've had my current friends, and it feels like a significant part of my life is disappearing and there's nothing I can do about it.

people in my group chat from high school are wishing someone else in the group happy birthday and when I said happy birthday somebody said “wait darwin you’re still alive?”

haha good one haha

I know this is nothing new considering all that's been going on, but having each day feel the same has basically sapped my energy in everything I do. I can do my job from home but I'm slowly deteriorating there too, then that feeling of unproductivity drops mental value elsewhere. Just need some diversity in the day to day I guess

maybe the job you have isnt the one for you? Maybe look in yourself and try to figure out what you really want to do. Also maybe start doing something you thought you would never do activity wise, sometimes people dont realize things you thought/seam un fun might actually be fun.

gl :)

Having a tooth pulled on Tuesday, in the mean time im suffering from an INFECTION IN MY SKULL

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Well, you're not wrong. It's just difficult to maintain the same motivation at home as I do in the office where help is more accessible. It's hard to gauge how I like the line of work considering my inexperience, it's been less than a year and I've been hopping around based on need. Anyway, trying something new isn't out of the picture.. it's just tricky in quarantine alongside the mental toll that brings. No means for excuses, but it is as it is currently. Fingers crossed for some changes soon

i worked graveyard for almost a year stocking shelves, and i finally got a job making a living wage, loved it, was good at it, but got laid off due to the economical implications of covid19. i am now back stocking shelves overnight.

also i have had no motivation to crank out stream highlight videos and i feel bad because i know thats the only content people care to see from me

i want to be good at tf2 but the ping barrier + my shitty mentality make make it so much harder

honestly dude i was subbed before stream highlights and I wouldn't mind seeing you post more stuff that you'd like to do. I could also try to help you out if you needed help on the stream highlights

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well for people that actually know me i always want the best for people i hope you find what your looking for, or become something you want to be. im always a good person to talk about these sorts of subjects if you need someone to talk too.Sometimes it takes a bit of time and you kinda grow/learn to love your current job, maybe there are perks that you take for granted that other people dont have and maybe capitalize on them. i get it, at the moment, with quarantine going on sucks but dont give up :)

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im literally unloveable boys :(

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I am training to be a teacher, and as part of the second year of my degree I have to do two seperate months of teaching in the same school. These placements were pass or fail unlike assignments, the first month I passed fine, then was a good student getting firsts in my assignments, then I got to the FINAL week of my second placement, one week away from passing the year, and my class teacher/mentor said that she didn't want me there as she had to focus on the kids' exams. She then denied this and lied to my university that I was hindering the kids' education and not taking her advice, so I was then kicked out and had to retake the entire year for no reason. The worst part is is that nobody beleives me, which I can understand as you wouldn't expect someone to be kicked out for no reason, and although it's not the worst thing that can happen, it's turned me into an anxious freak when I have to go into schools and I find it hard to have confidence in something I love doing.

2 of my friends i grew up with died this year not by choice, and my uncle shot and killed himself last weekend. Also coronavirus been putting a lot of stress on me lately as in not working as much to make bill payments/rent. Lots of stress this month and more to come hope to pull through.

I have about a month left of university. First off my dissertation is killing me, but second and more important I have no plan whatsoever for what to do after the world goes back to normal. I had a good job for summer all but laid in and now it's gone completely. I just want a stable enough income that I can afford a new computer and play more TF2. Back in the day I had a decent laptop but awful internet, now in my uni town I have great wifi but my laptop's gotten older and slower and each update makes TF2 harder to run. In all honesty my life is pretty OK at the moment but I'm worried about what comes next.