be less cringey unless your crush is some other cringebag, then show him this thread

free agent pick me up

jk dont downfrag

just posting to say i will help get a few peoples league fees paid if they are struggling since i once had my fees and premium paid for no good reason. i cant pay everyone's but feel free to reach out, worst i can say is "outta funds right now"

edit: helped a few heads out wallets hurt right now but if theres still time to pay up next week maybe i can still get some people paid

editedit: ok ive helped out some more people, i think thats all for this season. anybody that ive sent league fees/premium money you dont have to pay me back at all. the couple of people that said youd pay me back when you can, im not gonna hold you to it so thats on you if you want to. hope everyone i helped does super this season and im going to be rooting for all of you!

make us proud ! rooting for you

havent really had much time for videogames anymore and in truth i am way better off. working and saving to get a house with my girlfriend. free time goes to musical projects im involved in or reading books. oh, and going outside has been great lately.

@ memory
you should not try to justify abuse. family is not supposed to hurt. talk to somebody about it who is outside the situation, preferably a professional, and see what they have to say. i guarantee that what you are going through is not unique to you alone. there are many people your age that have very similar circumstances and go through the same thoughts, trying to provide themselves with answers and explanations. the truth is your version of the truth is going to come out warped no matter how much time you spend working it out. even if you think its the best explanation, its still going to be somewhat tainted because you are coming from a very negative environment. im not saying this to discourage you, im trying to do the opposite. i strongly advise seeking real help irl in relation to your family/abuse issues, you will get much better results through therapy than anywhere else.

as for the being introverted/apathetic part, that is not such a bad thing. i feel like many of the people here fall into that category, and i attribute it to the internet desensitizing us and making us forget how important socialization is. even then, being introverted is not innately bad. you just have to recognize your introverted traits and understand how to use them as a benefit in your life. many introverts go on to be great thinkers, artists, and innovators. dont beat yourself up over your qualities, especially ones you cannot control.

i relate to you on the behavior. ive made a lot of terrible decisions too because i just did not have the common sense to think about the outcome. all i can say is that every single day you are here, life gives you an abundance of opportunities to make things better for yourself. you are not doomed for eternity to continue living this way if it is not pleasing to you. it starts with recognition and taking action. you have to identify what aspects of your life you are not happy about, and then look hard at how you can begin to change those. its a slow process. the way i see it (in my situation) i spent a long time making myself miserable because i was an asshole to my friends and did a lot of stupid things to get myself in trouble, so its going to take an even longer time to fix that. but thats okay, because as long as i am approaching a future that i am happier with, then i am doing the best i can. id really like to add you and talk further in depth, i feel like some of the things you touched on in your post can be spoken of between us.

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quit while youre ahead

do everything that you may be even remotely interested in now. theres so much shit i wish i tried when i was in HS that i didnt because i thought i wouldnt actually like it, "didnt have time", was afraid of people judging me. i missed out on a lot of potentially cool stuff that would have been really easy for me to get into, and for free, but i didnt. use this time to learn how to speak to adults. i had good friendships with a lot of my teachers simply because i knew how to talk to people older than me. above all, be yourself (as cliche as that is) and do what you feel is important to you, not what you think is going to impress people.

there is a lot more to life than work. you need time for hobbies and enjoyment. im not saying not to pursue medical school, its an honorable profession and great income, but i think if you are considering it then you should know that you will still have time in your life for the things you enjoy. it may very well bring you to an early retirement, which would leave a lot more time for enjoying yourself than most people ever manage to find. i know the coming years seem packed with work but think of the long term and why you want to do it. there is a way to balance things out so even if you are always bogged with school/work, you will have some time to yourself.

for the time being just play your drums until someone tells you otherwise. i am a drummer as well, i have always played my kit in the house and i have a tiny as fuck room. when it was set up in here, all i had was a bed and drums, lol. i currently have an electronic drum kit, which is my next point to raise. if someone ends up complaining about the noise, definitely look into an e-kit. i know they carry a pricetag but you can get a really good, mid-tier one for around a grand, which isnt really any more than you would spend on a regular acoustic drumkit+cymbals. plus, the e-kit has a lot longer lifespan (no broken cymbals/skins) and it takes up a lot less space. theres also a ton of cool features and programs you can work within it that you cant get on an acoustic kit. finally, i find that playing on smaller pads has improved my accuracy, since i am hitting a smaller target. look into it if you havent already. i have a roland td-11 and i have loved every minute of using it. i suggest staying in the Roland brand, they really know their shit and make quality instruments.

for a long time, i could only whistle by sucking air in. i can now whistle by blowing air out as well.

yeah i spoke to my older sister about it, shes kind of against it. i dont think its the best idea either but i just know that my mother needs something as "big" as being put on live tv for an intervention. we are going to look into other forms of intervention for now.

this is tough to explain but... a while ago i contacted the Dr. Phil show in regards to my mother who is an alcoholic, cigarette smoker, bit of a hoarder, in denial about everything, generally way out of her mind and seems to not really give a fuck. they just emailed me back today to follow up. i guess when i filled out the initial 'application' i was doing it because i didnt really think id have a chance to get on the show. my mother watches Dr. Phil very often and i wondered what itd be like if she were the subject of one of his shows (there are countless people on there, that she sees, who are in her position or fit her description, and its like my mom probably never even realizes that she is one of those people who need an intervention). i dont know if i can really go through with this. number one i really dont want to be on the show or on tv, but it seems like i would have to be. secondly, i know my mother is going to react awfully when shes told "hey pack your things we are going to the studio so you can be on Dr. Phil" i dont know... i really didnt expect a human response telling me to follow up. deep down i know my mother needs something on this level to turn her life around, like a serious wake up call. but damn... i know i have to go through with this but its a lot to take it. i have to talk it out with some family before letting my mom know.

i think you might benefit from walking away from the computer more often. it sounds like you enjoy the world and have some creative outlets. the internet has a way of making people really shitty and depressed for no reason. im convinced that long periods of time spent on the internet drain a person of their energy and force them into negative headspaces. and dont kill yourself. nobody is going to like that, and its not going to help you with your issues. finish your goddamn college applications, sooner the better. i wish i didnt slack off in that area. i wanted to apply to a bunch of schools but wound up only applying to two. i didnt even go to either of them despite being accepted. if you are gifted in school then ride that train for as long as possible. its going to be the best thing going for you in life, i promise.

i yell whenever i hit difficult/lucky airshots