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As a Setlet can confirm that it's Setlet

Source: Setlet

Shoutout to the crowns people (heny etc.) for letting me sleep at their house!

I might need to add that she had had cancer for a year now and she finally lost the battle so it wasn't really that surprising and I have had plenty of time to cope and deal with it. I still appreciate your comment greatly. I would never admit that it would ever had any impact on my gameplay but as I was essentially emptying my thoughts here I figured it would fit there. I have never brought my personal life to these forums (or to anyone in TF2 scene) so I guess that's a first. I'm not waiting for pity or it being "the be all end all" reason why I lost one official. Maybe only small amount but I would never admit it.

Lack of confidence in myself and my team, lack of comms in general on what to do and bad DM on my part are the ingredients on how to lose games. Gratz to B5, you really deserved this win and hopefully you can see that nothing is lost yet and I hope you will continue forward and participate in future seasons.

I take 95% responsibility of this game. No passion on my part, no motivation to win and being selfish towards my teammates who probably wanted to win this much more than me is something I can only blame myself for. I attempt to take this as a lesson as I have now seen how disruptive one player can be if he doesn't share the same mindset as his other teammates. I have forgotten what makes me a good demoman and I feel like I'm trying to be something I am not. I hope I can regain trust of my teammates so they can still believe that I'm worthy player in their eyes and not just a leech who is there to get glory in expense of others.

I hope I will find the passion and motivation to go forward but I'm not actually sure what to do. Hopefully I can "find myself" at Dreamhack so I can see what it's like to LAN again (my last TF2 lan was 2011 summer assembly), hopefully giving me a boost in confidence and hope for future so I know what I'm doing this work for. I promise to do my all so I won't let skeej's team down. I also thank them for giving me the opportunity to play even though adysky was available to play in the end.

https://www.twitch.tv/setlet/v/72603019?t=1h35m30s This is my PoV of the game, maybe you'll see some similarities in my gameplay and the things I said in this post. Shoutout to cuteTEA for hosting and all the viewers that tuned in, sorry for not being able to provide you with action that I could say I was proud of.

Why did I write this? I'm not sure but it kinda helped me to sort out my thoughts. They've been kinda all over the place recently, especially since my mother died last week. Hopefully we don't make any unnecessary roster changes on others' expense and hopefully we can continue building our team and get points from our future fixtures. I need to admit though, that it won't happen overnight and we need to be in the same page in order it to work. I hope nobody blames any singular player, and if you do, blame me instead.

Pistol has random spray? Tell that to quad...

The thing is that the more people are good at pubs the worse it becomes, when you realize that 12v12 with no classlimits and shitty PL or A/D maps is a horrible experience if the goal is to win.

Maybe it made it more fun to watch, but playing against it wasn't fun and even today I still hold a grudge against it. Goes to the same category as equalizer/bonk/sandvich. At least some of those unlocks are still banned/nerfed.

Maybe some random swedes will stand in.

And still no full 6 points for Crowns

vanilla ruleset (+med unlocks) was better

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3-0 6-1 for nameLess

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Initially when they were introduced I didn't want to buy them because they ruin some hiding spots (notably the bush at badlands choke). Now I just don't care about hats.