https://clips.twitch.tv/CleanSleepyGoatDoggo-dNIitVBkL2PO7G3U

For people wondering about visas and stuff I checked this

I'm from Belgium and I'm in the UK for tourism said it's fine to stay in the UK for 6 months without a visa
I recommend filling in your own stuff, but you can click this to read what I got. Should be the same for most of you

This forum is mostly 6v6 players so I don't think you'll find much helpful advice here.
I can't give you advice concerning mechanics. For that I'd sooner point to places w more active spy mains (unironically reddit might actually be better for this than TFTV)

Biggest advice I can give you though is to practise in pubs, not on offline scenario maps w low ping (fakelag also doesn't really do the trick imo) and bots that mimic your movement
Experience in pubs is a much higher priority than trying to brute force the mechanics.
As you learn to read real situations, you learn to set up trickstabs to be less predictable and easier to execute.
And over time the mechanics will just kinda get there

In my eyes this video is the equivalent of grinding kovaak's all day to get better at scout or whatever. It's a small piece of the puzzle

edit: the one mechanical thing I did notice is you went for some attempts where you are still in front diagonally of the engi and you kinda just try to stab him in the shoulder hoping it works. You need to stand right beside him for that to work, otherwise your knife always lands on the front 180° of the hitbox

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6GqeN4AKKms

here's a tutorial
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HbRH1AhSlzo

cu@

https://clips.twitch.tv/ObliviousTriangularBatMrDestructoid-OQf6a5cEgnI5-2JU

people who are banned can still play.
They can just dmix w their friends and any discords that dont mirror league bans.
You can even make a team that only scrims and never plays offis

I think you value offis as a metric for being competitive too highly.
Basically everyone plays way more mixes/pugs/scrims than offis.
They only lost access to 1 thing

Quick tip for people buying flowers tmrw

When you bring home the flowers
You get the vase, you fill it with water, you put in the flowers.
Otherwise you're gifting your mom a chore as part of the gift

The rocket launcher explosion particle is called "ExplosionCore_wall".

Somewhere in the code a call is made to find an alternate particle file.
I'm lacking context but I'm guessing this has to do with the Rocket Jumper.

Could be a couple things.
Something unimplemented by Valve? some remnant code for a custom particle that was never added
A missing custom particle from a server plug-in? then it'd only be an issue on that community server though
You're missing a particle? verifying game files would fix this, but I doubt it's this

This shouldn't cause observable lag.
If it annoys you, use this to filter it out

New video:
Using paint.net to preview and edit VTFs
Saving VTFs
Reloading VTFs in-game
etc

Sorry for audio issues (background noise and couple audio spikes). My mic is in need of replacement

I'm doing things in a rather strange order, but this video seemed most important to make.
Next video will probably be about editing weapon txt files, VMTs, etc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HbRH1AhSlzo

https://clips.twitch.tv/RockyNurturingChamoisOptimizePrime-hKGr5x1_E7Xz9VZN
https://clips.twitch.tv/PeacefulNastyDolphinDancingBanana-t8kHa3pR9mRHJvoT

nubbi pov
https://clips.twitch.tv/SwissPlausiblePlumberWholeWheat-S3IbQZ-XHQdOxVFw

mak pov
https://clips.twitch.tv/ObservantPleasantRhinocerosSaltBae-nLQfo0W68pw1XNuJ

gazy pov
https://clips.twitch.tv/SnappyWonderfulTeaBCouch-ONcIcH_bSml1qHed

interesting quirk of ruleset
https://clips.twitch.tv/DullCulturedSmoothieTebowing-VOx7g7QusRO2voAi

b4nny
https://clips.twitch.tv/HotBashfulSpiderHotPokket-wcz88j3XGJA1A3an

If people disliked you from the start then the server wouldn't have taken off as it has.

Part of the issue with trying to build an inclusive community is you'll eventually run into people who want to exclude others. Or just don't get along. It's a paradox. No solution is satisfactory. An inclusive community has to exclude people eventually to remain inclusive for those marginalized or to avoid conflict.

You're not enjoying the position you're in. Take a step back. This is a hobby. I wouldn't even stick with a job that would make me feel like this, but you're doing it for free.

Rahmixes don't need you to actively observe them. They'll keep going for a while without you

The feelings you're feeling have pushed away many many admins, devs, pug organizers, production, casters, etc.
Hopefully you find some comfort again and stick around. But for now clearly this isn't working for you and you're just going to burn out (you already have. let's be honest)

People don't dislike you. While I can't speak for everyone, to me you always appeared to be enthusiastic abt the comp scene and eager to help pubbers find out about it. You were keen to help with production etc. Clearly you found something that once gave you a lot of joy. Reminded me of Archrythm who started similarly only a couple years before you.
Right now it's not that anymore. So take a step back and take time to figure yourself out again

I feel like part of the issue here is how you try to fit into groups.
You're a people pleaser. You are young and are still learning how to fit in.
And that's an angle you've found works for you right now

You've conditioned yourself to have the whole "loud/annoying = funny" going on because it "works".
Essentially an online class clown, looking for approval by saying dumb shit and yelling.
And that's fine. Everyone knows multiple people like you. Or has known in the past.

Over time you'll find new angles on how to approach friendships. It's part of growing up and it's not something you rush.
You're literally a child. You'll learn. I hope people don't see this thread and now expect you to be a "grown up". Because that's not what this is.
This list helps you way less than you think. It lacks the nuance that comes with experience. An experience you won't gain by asking others about it

You can't rush a process that takes most people decades.
You have burned some bridges. Everyone does at some point.
Over time you learn to understand where you messed up and become a better person out of it.
And you'll gain friendships in which you won't have to feel like you need to stand out just to fit in.

Ironically, this nerd essay also is very unhelpful. Just like the list you'll understand this entire thread in a couple years after having figured it out by yourself.

Don't be toxic, the rest will come eventually (see how unhelpful this actually is despite it being correct advice. it's something you can't teach someone else)