there's this geezah yah haven't even talked to him in 3 years but he makes a low key( idk what u call it) threat like nigga its been 3 years..
i originally wasted too much time in pubs and friendly servers before i got into playing this game competitively, i play on a poor setup despite being able to save up for a decent one if i actually invested time into it
i would be considered an extremely cancerous player if i wasn't a submissive fag who never says anything i mean to other player's faces, i hate some people for the sole reason that they are better than i will ever be because of their natural talent & mindset towards the game
also, i would actually be able to succeed and advance in this game if i took the time to find a mentor & play an actual season of esea, which i have been procrastinating for god knows how long. i really just need someone to guide me & make me do this shit tbh
i would be considered an extremely cancerous player if i wasn't a submissive fag who never says anything i mean to other player's faces, i hate some people for the sole reason that they are better than i will ever be because of their natural talent & mindset towards the game
also, i would actually be able to succeed and advance in this game if i took the time to find a mentor & play an actual season of esea, which i have been procrastinating for god knows how long. i really just need someone to guide me & make me do this shit tbh
soldiers who try to have flick aim but it ends up looking like they have tourettes
it pisses me off
it pisses me off
i decided i wanted a milkshake so decided to walk over and buy 1 from this place nearby on campus
wait in line for like 10 minutes then order it and a burger
burger comes pretty quickly
after like 10 minutes of waiting i get fed up and ask the cashier whats going on and he says they're working on it so i go sit down and finish my cold burger
i get up to throw out my trash and when i come back the dude yells VANILLA SHAKE and holds it up and this dude fucking snatches it before i can even get there
i tell them i ordered one like 20 minutes ago and still haven gotten it so the guy gets up to make another and i get to wait another few minutes (guess this time they didn't forget about it...)
shit triggered me so hard that i waited there for nearly a half hour and this dude just comes by and steals it lmao
wait in line for like 10 minutes then order it and a burger
burger comes pretty quickly
after like 10 minutes of waiting i get fed up and ask the cashier whats going on and he says they're working on it so i go sit down and finish my cold burger
i get up to throw out my trash and when i come back the dude yells VANILLA SHAKE and holds it up and this dude fucking snatches it before i can even get there
i tell them i ordered one like 20 minutes ago and still haven gotten it so the guy gets up to make another and i get to wait another few minutes (guess this time they didn't forget about it...)
shit triggered me so hard that i waited there for nearly a half hour and this dude just comes by and steals it lmao
I played medic in ETF2L (mostly at mid level in 6s and high in HL) for a while but I had to force myself to quit the game several times and try to stay away. I love the competitive side of the game and I really like the awesome community that plays it.
The problem is that I have some problems with self-confidence and being competitive with /comparing myself to other medics.
No doubt I have improved at the game from when I first started but my progress has been super slow because every time I play in a team for any significant length of time I end up having to quit because it's just too much stress and then that means I take it out on my team which isn't fair on them and it just makes me hate myself more when I do it. I haven't been able to stay in a team for more than a season which sucks and I've tried managing my own teams but I'm just not very good at it. As a medic this is fatal because playing in a team is really the only really reliable way of improving imo.
So I moved on to doing projects and trying to get involved that way. I've done so many different things in so many different orgs I've written articles for thespire.tv, administrated for TF2C, organised casts for maincall.tf (I wanted to get into casting as well but could never pluck up the courage even though my practice casts were well received) and started TF2Stadium. I wanted to start a coaching scheme for up and coming casters to try and encourage more people to get into the casting scene with another famous caster who I won't name but sadly that never happened and I quit the game entirely soon after.
All of this was because I wanted to be involved with this community but ultimately the same personal problems get in the way of everything that I do both in and outside of the game. I couldn't even bring myself to watch i58 streams because I knew that would tempt me back into the game like i52 did and so I went to the extreme lengths of spoiling the outcome for myself...
At the same time all of this was happening, I was going through a really hard time at university and that ended really badly partly because of the issues I mentioned before and partly because the university fucked up really bad and my life and career hasn't really recovered since and it makes me really angry.
I watched the whole of Bojack Horseman for the first time a few weeks ago and there are elements of that show which really sums up how I feel. I would recommend it to anyone by the way the show is amazing regardless of whether you can sympathise with it or not.
But yeah I'm just trying to fill the hole in my life that used to be TF2 and yeah there are other things I can and will do but TF2 was special to me despite all of the bad experiences I had with it. So to see this game in the state that it's in and to see what people are writing on TFTV about the game's state and valve really makes me angry. If only I could bring myself to do something about it. :/
TL:DR - Self-esteem issues fucked up my life and any chance of me ever getting involved in TF2 in any capacity or for that matter get on with my life. Yay, fun times.
The problem is that I have some problems with self-confidence and being competitive with /comparing myself to other medics.
No doubt I have improved at the game from when I first started but my progress has been super slow because every time I play in a team for any significant length of time I end up having to quit because it's just too much stress and then that means I take it out on my team which isn't fair on them and it just makes me hate myself more when I do it. I haven't been able to stay in a team for more than a season which sucks and I've tried managing my own teams but I'm just not very good at it. As a medic this is fatal because playing in a team is really the only really reliable way of improving imo.
So I moved on to doing projects and trying to get involved that way. I've done so many different things in so many different orgs I've written articles for thespire.tv, administrated for TF2C, organised casts for maincall.tf (I wanted to get into casting as well but could never pluck up the courage even though my practice casts were well received) and started TF2Stadium. I wanted to start a coaching scheme for up and coming casters to try and encourage more people to get into the casting scene with another famous caster who I won't name but sadly that never happened and I quit the game entirely soon after.
All of this was because I wanted to be involved with this community but ultimately the same personal problems get in the way of everything that I do both in and outside of the game. I couldn't even bring myself to watch i58 streams because I knew that would tempt me back into the game like i52 did and so I went to the extreme lengths of spoiling the outcome for myself...
At the same time all of this was happening, I was going through a really hard time at university and that ended really badly partly because of the issues I mentioned before and partly because the university fucked up really bad and my life and career hasn't really recovered since and it makes me really angry.
I watched the whole of Bojack Horseman for the first time a few weeks ago and there are elements of that show which really sums up how I feel. I would recommend it to anyone by the way the show is amazing regardless of whether you can sympathise with it or not.
But yeah I'm just trying to fill the hole in my life that used to be TF2 and yeah there are other things I can and will do but TF2 was special to me despite all of the bad experiences I had with it. So to see this game in the state that it's in and to see what people are writing on TFTV about the game's state and valve really makes me angry. If only I could bring myself to do something about it. :/
TL:DR - Self-esteem issues fucked up my life and any chance of me ever getting involved in TF2 in any capacity or for that matter get on with my life. Yay, fun times.
i love playing scout in games but i hate practicing dm with a passion, i don't fucking want to spend 3 hours doing scout mge cuz i go full tryhard mode (sit on the edge of my chair and aim with my forearm, when i'm casually playing i sit back and it makes it less painful to aim with my arm)
so i only practice soldier in mge cuz i use 12cm/360 on soldier and its fucking relaxing, like playing a jump map or something
but the problem is i don't want to main soldier because i play with high ping (i live in north africa and play on eu servers, i usually get 90 to 120 ping) and it's gonna be aids to find a team who wants a 100 ping soldier
so i only practice soldier in mge cuz i use 12cm/360 on soldier and its fucking relaxing, like playing a jump map or something
but the problem is i don't want to main soldier because i play with high ping (i live in north africa and play on eu servers, i usually get 90 to 120 ping) and it's gonna be aids to find a team who wants a 100 ping soldier
everytime i want to play scout mge the whole server is full of soldier and if i join a map alone and wait someone joins and tries to force me to play soldier by attacking me while hes soldier and im scout
gloryeverytime i want to play scout mge the whole server is full of soldier and if i join a map alone and wait someone joins and tries to force me to play soldier by attacking me while hes soldier and im scout
or you could just mge as scout vs a soldier. which is a lot better for practicing movement than scout v scout
or you could just mge as scout vs a soldier. which is a lot better for practicing movement than scout v scout
DirtyMortgloryeverytime i want to play scout mge the whole server is full of soldier and if i join a map alone and wait someone joins and tries to force me to play soldier by attacking me while hes soldier and im scoutor you could just mge as scout vs a soldier. which is a lot better for practicing movement than scout v scout
yea but the thing is im really really bad at scout v soldier and ive done scout v soldier 10000 times and i always get beaten either 20-4 or 20-17
or you could just mge as scout vs a soldier. which is a lot better for practicing movement than scout v scout[/quote]
yea but the thing is im really really bad at scout v soldier and ive done scout v soldier 10000 times and i always get beaten either 20-4 or 20-17
Internet cable isn't working when plugged into the wall and I have to "play" off of wifi. I also get incredibly awful stutters when I do decide to play online.
(Looking for 8 seconds and 18 seconds in the video, the last little bit was most likely a ping spike)
Mind you, my laptop is the closest thing to the router in my apartment. I also think I sent in a support ticket but I have no idea if it even went through. I can deal with a low framerate but I can't deal with a connection that seems to almost time out every 10-20 seconds for a second or 2.
I really just want something else to do other than studies and go to parties (the few that I actually go to) and I'm getting rather burnt out from just doing straight hud editing and practicing demo rollouts
Edit: THIS JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER HOLY SHIT
So apparently in my support ticket, the "length of the message must be between 3 and 500" and I have no idea if that's 3 or 500 letters or 3 and 500 words. I just copied and pasted what I had into a word document and got about 140 words. What the actual fuck tech support
Edit2: Took me long enough but I should not have to go through this much time to send in a simple support ticket
(Looking for 8 seconds and 18 seconds in the video, the last little bit was most likely a ping spike)
Mind you, my laptop is the closest thing to the router in my apartment. I also think I sent in a support ticket but I have no idea if it even went through. I can deal with a low framerate but I can't deal with a connection that seems to almost time out every 10-20 seconds for a second or 2.
I really just want something else to do other than studies and go to parties (the few that I actually go to) and I'm getting rather burnt out from just doing straight hud editing and practicing demo rollouts
Edit: THIS JUST KEEPS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER HOLY SHIT
So apparently in my support ticket, the "length of the message must be between 3 and 500" and I have no idea if that's 3 or 500 letters or 3 and 500 words. I just copied and pasted what I had into a word document and got about 140 words. What the actual fuck tech support
Edit2: Took me long enough but I should not have to go through this much time to send in a simple support ticket
I need to vent, sorry to necro but why wont IM teams play seriously in scrims against my team even if we are in open ;_;
Having a shit rep because I was a cocky asshole who thought I was all that because I played steel medic on a hl team when I first started pugging and not being able to claw myself out of the shit rep even though I actively try to improve and be a better player so I can not be shit like I used to be. And when people assume that i'm the person i was a year ago and assume that I never improve and that if I ever show signs of improvement its always a fluke. And that im a "meme" and that i'll always be bad or that I only play medic because im bad at other classes, or that I act like the leader i was over a year ago.
not being able to sit a person down while in a stalemate and break down what we need to do
gloryyea but the thing is im really really bad at scout v soldier and ive done scout v soldier 10000 times and i always get beaten either 20-4 or 20-17
"i always get beat either 20-4 or 20-17"
"20-17"
Wait, so is this a concern you have? Despite losing, 20-17 is pretty good, especially if you think you're shit at scout v. soldier. If you're losing a lot of sessions where you are so close to winning, I'd think over what it is you're doing each round and try and figure out what you're doing in their favor. I mean, it's MGE and only so much actually carries over to scrims or even pugs, but figuring out why you keep losing to soldiers as a scout despite being so close to winning could easily help you out in general.
"i always get beat either 20-4 or 20-17"
"20-17"
Wait, so is this a concern you have? Despite losing, 20-17 is pretty good, especially if you think you're shit at scout v. soldier. If you're losing a lot of sessions where you are so close to winning, I'd think over what it is you're doing each round and try and figure out what you're doing in their favor. I mean, it's MGE and only so much actually carries over to scrims or even pugs, but figuring out why you keep losing to soldiers as a scout despite being so close to winning could easily help you out in general.
I'm trying to get with this girl but I'm awkward and too much of a bitch boi to ask her out and I'm p sure if I keep being a pussy I'll miss my opportunity/fuck up. Pissed at myself for being beta smh why did I chose to spend thousands of hours on a videogame instead of being social
I can hit all the insane headshots in pubs but F2P scouts with the most basic movement patterns refuse to be shot xd
nanimalI'm trying to get with this girl but I'm awkward and too much of a bitch boi to ask her out and I'm p sure if I keep being a pussy I'll miss my opportunity/fuck up. Pissed at myself for being beta smh why did I chose to spend thousands of hours on a videogame instead of being social
never too late buddy :)
never too late buddy :)
A lot of my friends feel terrible and are in pain and I feel useless because I don't know what to do to help them.
nanimalI'm trying to get with this girl but I'm awkward and too much of a bitch boi to ask her out and I'm p sure if I keep being a pussy I'll miss my opportunity/fuck up. Pissed at myself for being beta smh why did I chose to spend thousands of hours on a videogame instead of being social
Stop saying things like "beta" and you will be one step forward
Stop saying things like "beta" and you will be one step forward
Today and tomorrow were going to be the last days I had off both work and TF2 for literal months, and I'm playing a match instead because Lee double booked us yesterday.
Also, I'm gonna be working 6 days a week for a while here and still getting shit pay fml
Also, I'm gonna be working 6 days a week for a while here and still getting shit pay fml
i miss my ex
sucks more bc i still see her everyday
sucks more bc i still see her everyday
VariA lot of my friends feel terrible and are in pain and I feel useless because I don't know what to do to help them.
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