Repeatedly alting and never being able to remain consistent with "who" I want to be

smoking

quitting college after 2 years

installing tf2

playing tf2 with mr.owl

Buying a cheap laptop to play video games

moving in with my mom instead of my dad when they divorced
i havent seen my dad in 12 years and i would really love to see him again
i legitimally think i would be a better person or at least have a better life if i had moved in with my dad

smoking
dont do that shit people

today i went for an ubersaw on the enemy demo during a midfight
it turned out that he had a trap around the corner

microwaving styrofoam

maining sniper

not trying to keep in touch of close friends after highschool... should of tried to stop my friends from use of hard drugs..

not trying in school

smoking

not looking for help fixing depression and etc etc sooner

i just ate mini gummy sweetart bites and i think im going to cry i hate sour candy

wtf!!!!! I'm the best influence you've ever had!!!

My eating habits are so fucking bad.

This is true

playing on a team with mustardoverlord

cocaine

not keeping my shit together in my first 2 and a half years of highschool :/

Just... playing Valve games. That feel when your favorite games of all time are HL2 and TF2 :(

Not going to therapy earlier than I did, could have averted a lot of problems in the past few years.

also with tf2 related stuff
pubbing way too much (2500+ hours)
playing too many inhouse pugs

shortin tony spimento

as far as tf2 goes, not playing on ascent when they asked last year

as far as not tf2 goes, not being more open about my needs irl sooner because i valued myself too little over others

playing tf2

Letting my insecurities take control.

Not spending more time with passing family members.

Clicking on anything posted by Train...

waiting until my 20s to start lifting weights

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