I have social anxiety, cant be in groups not even with my family. had to be homeschooled because of it. people say "just get over it" but its easier said than done

thanks for the help guys i got the kill feed looking close to it

http://i.imgur.com/q9F6JIE.jpg?1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOPWiYgwVSg

is there a way to get my killfeed to look something like this w.o changing huds?

fixed-
Animate CrossHairRequest FgColor "255 0 0 255" Linear 0.0 0.00001
Animate CrossHairRequest FgColor "0 255 0 255" Linear 0.10 0.10001
>put in scripts/hudanimations_tf under event DamagedPlayer

replace "CrossHairRequest" with the name of your custom crosshair (found in scripts/hudlayout.res)

OK so im trying to make my xhair pulse when I damage someone. In my event DamagedPlayer I have

Animate DamageAccountValue Alpha "255" linear 0.0 0.0
Animate DamageAccountValue Alpha "0" linear 10.0 0.2
Animate DamageAccountValueBG Alpha "255" linear 0.0 0.0
Animate DamageAccountValueBG Alpha "0" linear 10.0 0.2

Animate xHairRequest FgColor "255 0 0 255" Linear 0.0 0.00001
Animate xHairRequest FgColor "0 255 0 255" Linear 0.10 0.10001

i really dont know what im doing and i've tried alot of suggestions pls help

http://www.2shared.com/file/e6ZLXhM7/hud.html - hud im using