I don't really know what to say. Obviously what happened to Lain is terrible and many members of this community failed to be at all welcoming or kind to her. I just don't really see what would make this community grow if this didn't.

I’m not gloating. I’m pissed. I’ve never been so fucking angry in my life with so many childish, short sighted, selfish, disconcerting, ego-maniacs, complete utter strangers, so many faceless heartless degenerates on a gaming Internet forum in my life. The level of disappointment, I cannot begin to vent on you fuckers.

Yeah that was not the correct thing to say, and I edited it out after giving more thought.

This whole thing has been terrible, I obviously could've done a lot more to help Lain while she was struggling in her final days. She had consistently messaged me to game over the final weeks of her life, which I consistently declined due to being at work or busy with other commitments. What I truly truly wish is that I had stuck up for her in the community during the times when she was harassed, versus what I did by just keeping my mouth shut over fear of being harassed myself.

I also blame myself for fucking up things for dreamhack, if I hadn’t fucked my car up I would had been able to go, she was going to stay at my hotel room, I had a shot to help and set some kinda positive direction, but I fucked that up. I’m sorry RoL.

rain not being in a group home was neglect, anything external to that pales in comparison even though it was horrible.
please have the respect to stop making her suicide about you.

I’m not making it about me. I’m making it about the lack of self control and inability to provide positive / stable responses and interactions to someone with mental health issues and a risk of self harm. Yes she should had been in better care, but respectfully she still had access to this community and despite the self awareness that was clearly known among everyone, nothing was done.

Did anyone consider suggesting the idea of encouraging Rain from staying away from drugs, perhaps even drinking, things that actually had an impact on the very condition, that I assume, a good chunk of you thought was annoying, cringe, perhaps annoying? I really have to fucking wonder.

bad faith arguments against the community aren't going to help you or anyone else who are disturbed by rol's passing. there was so little that this community could do for rol in terms of support, as most of that has to come from someone who was physically in her life (either from rol herself or from someone else)

it was the responsibility of her guardians, not internet strangers. while i fully can imagine you as the type to go up to unhoused people and lecture them on their substance abuse, i can assure you that is both unproductive and unrealistic to ask of others. please let her memory rest instead of self aggrandizing, with all respect i think you lack the self awareness to understand that is what you are doing right now.

so you really have 2277 posts on tftv huh

Hey Aiera how about you just go fuck yourself? I was the only one with enough self awareness to judge that situation and be seriously concerned. This community is responsible for pushing someone to take their own life. I’m not tryin to help any of you, I got bad faith on the nature of what little brotherly concern this lord of the flies shit show has for each other, you might not recognize it, but you guys did have a major impact on this person.

Any other ways you wanna size up my apparent misconception of the situation Aiera? Why don’t you just call me Jesse while you’re at it.

That’s correct. And your 200 something post is a jab shitpost on a discussion about someone who is no longer with us.

I’m going to bed. You got your annual “Brock Thread”. I’m comin back to play and I’m gunna fucking wipe the floor with you idiots. You can fucking count on it.

genuine subhuman freak behaviour to come back months after someone's passing just so you can get an egoboost and make it all about yourself