This is probably going to seem like a random thread to pop up on recent discussion, but that's fine. This place isn't my personal blog of any type and I'm not going to use "but it's in the off topic sub" as an excuse or whatever. My only excuse is that I just want to write about this. I've talked to her about this in the past plenty of times but I can never really get out what I've been wanting to say. She won't read this, but I needed somewhere to word exactly what I want to say.
I just wanted to thank my mom for not only simply bringing me into this life, despite any hardships I've had to go through, but for not giving up on herself for the benefit of not only me, but herself as well. She had me at a late age of 40. That's quite an old age in terms of giving birth. I'm 24, so that leaves her at, you guessed it, 64. I know that sounds weird, or the concept of it is weird to a lot of people, but it is what it is. I'm still at the beginning stage of my adult life while my mom is entering her last stage of her life in general and the fact that she's still willing to work just so bills get paid and our life isn't an eternal struggle (this is what I imagine it feels like to her) is amazing. Granted, she works at a motel and barely works for half the year because business only booms during the summer, but that only makes me more thankful that she hasn't given up yet.
She's currently receiving SS because she applied a lot earlier than she realistically should have, but we were in deep shit as far as debt is concerned to certain companies/corporations go and she got tired of it. So while we're still having some trouble here and there, we're out of the hole because she prematurely registered and got accepted for SS. For the past several months, she's barely worked and I can't remember the last time she made more than $100 on payday. It doesn't help that it's basically a family ran motel and they clearly favor family more than others, at least as far as shifts go. I don't know how things would have gone if it wasn't mostly family ran, but I do know the family gives more hours to other family members than the people who aren't family. My mom should be retired but yet she keeps working, even with little hours, because the both of us combined don't make enough. We'd be fucked if she quit at this moment.
Within the past week, a good friend's boyfriend asked me if I'm interested to work with him. I didn't know what he did but it turns out him and the rest of his crew work for a company that does anything from window washing to power washing to sanding to painting to house repair (decks, siding, etc). I mean, it's clearly not the coolest or greatest job in the world, but I knew I'd be making more than fucking $230-300. I instantly agreed and today I trained. It's my day off from my current job (retail) because I wanted to show I want the job. It's commission, but they get great jobs, anywhere from 5.5k to 38k (which is the highest I know of for them so far). 12% for one job priced at 5.5k? And not the only job within the week? Count me in. Granted, they don't charge a minimum of 5.5k obviously. Today we worked on a $500 job, but it's a one day job.
I'm getting lost in my own thoughts here. My point is, I have finally found somewhere that gives me the ability to actually have to work hard and get financially compensated for it. I'll be making, at the very least, 4-6 times more than what I make at this stupid fucking grocery store and my mom won't have to suffer the concept of work any longer. Knowing her, she probably will, but at the very least, her ability to finally quit will come to life. She's worked hard my entire life just so we can get by, albeit while not necessarily as bad as many others have it, however still pretty bad. Now it's my turn so she doesn't have to anymore and can rest easy and enjoy the rest of her life without worry.
I love you, mom. Thank you.
P.S. It's been 6 years since I've been in school and while I did graduate, I wish I could have done a better job. I was never an A student, a B student or even an A-B student. That's my fault and we could currently be in a better situation in life if I had actually cared about school. I couldn't have known about the hardships to come, but I could have cared more and pushed myself to do better.
But I didn't and I'm sorry. Very, very sorry.
This is probably going to seem like a random thread to pop up on recent discussion, but that's fine. This place isn't my personal blog of any type and I'm not going to use "but it's in the off topic sub" as an excuse or whatever. My only excuse is that I just want to write about this. I've talked to her about this in the past plenty of times but I can never really get out what I've been wanting to say. She won't read this, but I needed somewhere to word exactly what I want to say.
I just wanted to thank my mom for not only simply bringing me into this life, despite any hardships I've had to go through, but for not giving up on herself for the benefit of not only me, but herself as well. She had me at a late age of 40. That's quite an old age in terms of giving birth. I'm 24, so that leaves her at, you guessed it, 64. I know that sounds weird, or the concept of it is weird to a lot of people, but it is what it is. I'm still at the beginning stage of my adult life while my mom is entering her last stage of her life in general and the fact that she's still willing to work just so bills get paid and our life isn't an eternal struggle (this is what I imagine it feels like to her) is amazing. Granted, she works at a motel and barely works for half the year because business only booms during the summer, but that only makes me more thankful that she hasn't given up yet.
She's currently receiving SS because she applied a lot earlier than she realistically should have, but we were in deep shit as far as debt is concerned to certain companies/corporations go and she got tired of it. So while we're still having some trouble here and there, we're out of the hole because she prematurely registered and got accepted for SS. For the past several months, she's barely worked and I can't remember the last time she made more than $100 on payday. It doesn't help that it's basically a family ran motel and they clearly favor family more than others, at least as far as shifts go. I don't know how things would have gone if it wasn't mostly family ran, but I do know the family gives more hours to other family members than the people who aren't family. My mom should be retired but yet she keeps working, even with little hours, because the both of us combined don't make enough. We'd be fucked if she quit at this moment.
Within the past week, a good friend's boyfriend asked me if I'm interested to work with him. I didn't know what he did but it turns out him and the rest of his crew work for a company that does anything from window washing to power washing to sanding to painting to house repair (decks, siding, etc). I mean, it's clearly not the coolest or greatest job in the world, but I knew I'd be making more than fucking $230-300. I instantly agreed and today I trained. It's my day off from my current job (retail) because I wanted to show I want the job. It's commission, but they get great jobs, anywhere from 5.5k to 38k (which is the highest I know of for them so far). 12% for one job priced at 5.5k? And not the only job within the week? Count me in. Granted, they don't charge a minimum of 5.5k obviously. Today we worked on a $500 job, but it's a one day job.
I'm getting lost in my own thoughts here. My point is, I have finally found somewhere that gives me the ability to actually have to work hard and get financially compensated for it. I'll be making, at the very least, 4-6 times more than what I make at this stupid fucking grocery store and my mom won't have to suffer the concept of work any longer. Knowing her, she probably will, but at the very least, her ability to finally quit will come to life. She's worked hard my entire life just so we can get by, albeit while not necessarily as bad as many others have it, however still pretty bad. Now it's my turn so she doesn't have to anymore and can rest easy and enjoy the rest of her life without worry.
I love you, mom. Thank you.
P.S. It's been 6 years since I've been in school and while I did graduate, I wish I could have done a better job. I was never an A student, a B student or even an A-B student. That's my fault and we could currently be in a better situation in life if I had actually cared about school. I couldn't have known about the hardships to come, but I could have cared more and pushed myself to do better.
But I didn't and I'm sorry. Very, very sorry.
Week early but that's swell. Send love to yo mama next sunday.
Week early but that's swell. Send love to yo mama next sunday.
that's fantastic buddy! make sure you take the time on mother's day to spend time with her :3
that's fantastic buddy! make sure you take the time on mother's day to spend time with her :3
Just as a heads up, while this is clearly a forum and people can post whatever they want, be it a thread or reply to a thread, I'm not expecting, nor wishing, anyone to come to this thread with a feel good response. Do what you want, and if that's what you want to do, then thank you. I sincerely appreciate it. This is just something personal I wanted to get out that I can't to the person it's about. I didn't post this for the fucking tftv frags or anything. Sorry that I wasted anyone's time that read this, but this is the only place where I knew I could post it.
Just as a heads up, while this is clearly a forum and people can post whatever they want, be it a thread or reply to a thread, I'm not expecting, nor wishing, anyone to come to this thread with a feel good response. Do what you want, and if that's what you want to do, then thank you. I sincerely appreciate it. This is just something personal I wanted to get out that I can't to the person it's about. I didn't post this for the fucking tftv frags or anything. Sorry that I wasted anyone's time that read this, but this is the only place where I knew I could post it.
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Good post!
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rowrowWeek early but that's swell. Send love to yo mama next sunday.
you dont have to wait for one day out of the whole year to tell your mother you love her
[quote=rowrow]Week early but that's swell. Send love to yo mama next sunday.[/quote]
you dont have to wait for one day out of the whole year to tell your mother you love her
You don't have shit to apologize for. Maybe you didn't try in school because your mind was always on other things, maybe it was because you weren't mentally there yet, in terms of maturity; or maybe it's because, deep down, you knew that shit was a game and you couldn't bring yourself to play along. Maybe it was all three, and more. Either way, you'll find your game, you've got plenty of time. Your mother's age is testimony to that.
You don't have shit to apologize for. Maybe you didn't try in school because your mind was always on other things, maybe it was because you weren't mentally there yet, in terms of maturity; or maybe it's because, deep down, you knew that shit was a game and you couldn't bring yourself to play along. Maybe it was all three, and more. Either way, you'll find your game, you've got plenty of time. Your mother's age is testimony to that.
As a random internet stranger, I'm happy that you're moving forward and you've found a new opportunity. As for school, things happen, hiccups always happen, there is never a way to really know what is in store years from now, there is no reason to beat yourself up about something that won't change. But what matters is that you continue moving and growing. This post is proof of that.
There is no specific day to tell your mother thank you. Tell her as often as you need to, one day you'll wish you had one more chance to.
As a random internet stranger, I'm happy that you're moving forward and you've found a new opportunity. As for school, things happen, hiccups always happen, there is never a way to really know what is in store years from now, there is no reason to beat yourself up about something that won't change. But what matters is that you continue moving and growing. This post is proof of that.
There is no specific day to tell your mother thank you. Tell her as often as you need to, one day you'll wish you had one more chance to.
janedoerowrowWeek early but that's swell. Send love to yo mama next sunday.
you dont have to wait for one day out of the whole year to tell your mother you love her
thats so true! I told pie hero's mom that I love her just the other day.
[quote=janedoe][quote=rowrow]Week early but that's swell. Send love to yo mama next sunday.[/quote]
you dont have to wait for one day out of the whole year to tell your mother you love her[/quote]
thats so true! I told pie hero's mom that I love her just the other day.