So it's another hard year for me, doing the same exact thing, feeling the same exact way. There's no doubting that 2016 was one of the worst years of my life, but at the same time, the best year of my life. I don't exactly know how to put it.
I don't know where to begin here. Something's wrong. Maybe with me, maybe with what's going on around me, destroying me from all sides and ways it possibly can. People, they don't understand. People these days, they take depression and anxiety as a joke. This is where it starts getting hard to find help.
Why am I this way? A plentiful of reasons. Class is a big stress in my life. The bullies, and people from the past destroying me bit by bit every single day. Then work after that. Some video games when I am done, since I am currently in a 6s team. But even that is stressful. Tight schedule. Seems like I am getting less and less sleep each night, more and more tired to the point where my body doesn't even function properly. I am starting to get angry easily, to the point where I snap on people when I don't mean it. That's why she left. I didn't mean it.
I say that 2016 was also the best year because I actually had somebody, somebody to support me. Parents don't care. If I fall behind in classes because of the lack of actual support in my life, it's my problem I have to deal with. But as I said, I used to have somebody. This girl, we used to be together. For two and a half years. Helping me with the anxiety of every day, and the stress. I did the same for her. Something to look forward to. But now that she's gone, I don't know where to find hope. Everyone I thought was real disappeared, just because I'm not what they want me to be. I can't control it.
People always tell me to take medication. Go to therapists. Thing is, all this I've already tried. Medication only messes up your head even more, it doesn't just take the bad away. It removes everything from you. All emotion. Makes you something you're not. Hell, I don't even know who I am anymore. Therapists don't help. They only repeat the same damn thing every time you go. One day a week, time out of my life just to see somebody that asks the same damn questions.
Though, in the midst of all this, there's something I still cling to, the only thing I have left. Something I can't control all the time, my thoughts. It's finally something different every day. In my head, the only place I'm not alone. It's somewhere I feel safe even though I know, I KNOW that it will take total control one day.
I hate playing this character, portraying that everything in my life is alright when it's not. Of course. Tell me to reach out. Talk to other people about my problems. But they don't fucking understand. The amount of shit I've been through since childhood, changed my fucking head into a slaughter house of my own good will.
Why am I making this thread? I need help. I need to find hope in continuing with this relentless schedule, I don't know who is telling me to make this thread, it's one of them that knows what will become of me. As of now, there's nowhere else to go. Soon they will find out I need help, and change that for good.
So it's another hard year for me, doing the same exact thing, feeling the same exact way. There's no doubting that 2016 was one of the worst years of my life, but at the same time, the best year of my life. I don't exactly know how to put it.
I don't know where to begin here. Something's wrong. Maybe with me, maybe with what's going on around me, destroying me from all sides and ways it possibly can. People, they don't understand. People these days, they take depression and anxiety as a joke. This is where it starts getting hard to find help.
Why am I this way? A plentiful of reasons. Class is a big stress in my life. The bullies, and people from the past destroying me bit by bit every single day. Then work after that. Some video games when I am done, since I am currently in a 6s team. But even that is stressful. Tight schedule. Seems like I am getting less and less sleep each night, more and more tired to the point where my body doesn't even function properly. I am starting to get angry easily, to the point where I snap on people when I don't mean it. That's why she left. I didn't mean it.
I say that 2016 was also the best year because I actually had somebody, somebody to support me. Parents don't care. If I fall behind in classes because of the lack of actual support in my life, it's my problem I have to deal with. But as I said, I used to have somebody. This girl, we used to be together. For two and a half years. Helping me with the anxiety of every day, and the stress. I did the same for her. Something to look forward to. But now that she's gone, I don't know where to find hope. Everyone I thought was real disappeared, just because I'm not what they want me to be. I can't control it.
People always tell me to take medication. Go to therapists. Thing is, all this I've already tried. Medication only messes up your head even more, it doesn't just take the bad away. It removes everything from you. All emotion. Makes you something you're not. Hell, I don't even know who I am anymore. Therapists don't help. They only repeat the same damn thing every time you go. One day a week, time out of my life just to see somebody that asks the same damn questions.
Though, in the midst of all this, there's something I still cling to, the only thing I have left. Something I can't control all the time, my thoughts. It's finally something different every day. In my head, the only place I'm not alone. It's somewhere I feel safe even though I know, I KNOW that it will take total control one day.
I hate playing this character, portraying that everything in my life is alright when it's not. Of course. Tell me to reach out. Talk to other people about my problems. But they don't fucking understand. The amount of shit I've been through since childhood, changed my fucking head into a slaughter house of my own good will.
Why am I making this thread? I need help. I need to find hope in continuing with this relentless schedule, I don't know who is telling me to make this thread, it's one of them that knows what will become of me. As of now, there's nowhere else to go. Soon they will find out I need help, and change that for good.
If videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school
If videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school
pm me if you want to talk
pm me if you want to talk
I feel you little homie, stay up.
I feel you little homie, stay up.
If you're getting bullied then bully them back.
If you're getting bullied then bully them back.
ErenJayIf videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.
[quote=ErenJay]If videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school[/quote]
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.
HashtagBasedErenJayIf videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.
if tf2 is affecting your sleep schedule than quit competitve, play video games more casually
[quote=HashtagBased][quote=ErenJay]If videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school[/quote]
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.[/quote]
if tf2 is affecting your sleep schedule than quit competitve, play video games more casually
VulcanHashtagBasedErenJayIf videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.
if tf2 is affecting your sleep schedule than quit competitve, play video games more casually
I do understand what you're trying to say, but it's not TF2 that is affecting my sleep schedule, it is something with myself that I haven't figured out yet, some type of insomnia. This is why I stated that my body doesn't seem to be functioning properly, I can't seem to sleep.. Also, competitive is the most fun I can find in TF2 anymore. Everything else has just gone to shit because of Valve fucking with shit that already worked.
[quote=Vulcan][quote=HashtagBased][quote=ErenJay]If videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school[/quote]
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.[/quote]
if tf2 is affecting your sleep schedule than quit competitve, play video games more casually[/quote]
I do understand what you're trying to say, but it's not TF2 that is affecting my sleep schedule, it is something with myself that I haven't figured out yet, some type of insomnia. This is why I stated that my body doesn't seem to be functioning properly, I can't seem to sleep.. Also, competitive is the most fun I can find in TF2 anymore. Everything else has just gone to shit because of Valve fucking with shit that already worked.
VulcanHashtagBasedErenJayIf videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.
if tf2 is affecting your sleep schedule than quit competitve, play video games more casually
Definitely this. If you're finding yourself more worried and stressed about videogames, then I think it's worth taking a different approach. I found myself in a situation where instead of having fun in games, I was mostly getting angry, so I quit stuff like Dota, Overwatch, hearthstone, etc. and now I play games that I like to have fun and to relax.
That definitely changed a lot of how I saw my daily "routine" and was able to break out of it, you can always PM me if you want to talk :)
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HashtagBasedI do understand what you're trying to say, but it's not TF2 that is affecting my sleep schedule, it is something with myself that I haven't figured out yet, some type of insomnia. This is why I stated that my body doesn't seem to be functioning properly, I can't seem to sleep..
This is 100% due to stress.
[quote=Vulcan][quote=HashtagBased][quote=ErenJay]If videogaming helps keep doing it otherwise quit, tf2 should always come after health and school[/quote]
I'm pretty sure almost everybody feels this way, video games help keep your mind off the shit that bothers you. It feels for me, however, that the enjoyment from video games, TF2 in particular isn't doing as much as it used to. Having 3,900 hours on my main and 900 on this one, the game isn't helping as much anymore.[/quote]
if tf2 is affecting your sleep schedule than quit competitve, play video games more casually[/quote]
Definitely this. If you're finding yourself more worried and stressed about videogames, then I think it's worth taking a different approach. I found myself in a situation where instead of having fun in games, I was mostly getting angry, so I quit stuff like Dota, Overwatch, hearthstone, etc. and now I play games that I like to have fun and to relax.
That definitely changed a lot of how I saw my daily "routine" and was able to break out of it, you can always PM me if you want to talk :)
edit:
[quote=HashtagBased]
I do understand what you're trying to say, but it's not TF2 that is affecting my sleep schedule, it is something with myself that I haven't figured out yet, some type of insomnia. This is why I stated that my body doesn't seem to be functioning properly, I can't seem to sleep.. [/quote]
This is 100% due to stress.
Help yourself by helping others
Help yourself by helping others
try excercising heavily and eating lots of leafy greens, if you feel better physically you will feel better mentally
also quit tf2 for a while
try excercising heavily and eating lots of leafy greens, if you feel better physically you will feel better mentally
also quit tf2 for a while
genotry excercising heavily and eating lots of leafy greens, if you feel better physically you will feel better mentally
also quit tf2 for a while
That's something I will consider.
[quote=geno]try excercising heavily and eating lots of leafy greens, if you feel better physically you will feel better mentally
also quit tf2 for a while[/quote]
That's something I will consider.
Gym is the best thing that ever happened to my mental health
Gym is the best thing that ever happened to my mental health
I have had similar feelings in the past and can tell you right now that quitting tf2, or at least taking a break is the right step to go. Sleep is so important to mental health and I have felt a significant difference between an average 5 hours of sleep to 7-8 hours. Do yourself a favor and take a break from the game competitively. I can't tell you how great it feels to not have to be on a schedule for gaming. The ease of stress that it gives is something else and I beg you to try it at least for a season. It'll make casually playing games more enjoyable or at least it did for me.
Recognize your time constraints and work with them. Try to NEVER put games before work. It's a slippery slope and might happen from time to time but keep yourself in check. The goal for doing all this stuff is not to get you to play less but to ease your mind knowing that you can be well rested and less stressed in the long run.
You can add me to talk if you want.
I have had similar feelings in the past and can tell you right now that quitting tf2, or at least taking a break is the right step to go. Sleep is so important to mental health and I have felt a significant difference between an average 5 hours of sleep to 7-8 hours. Do yourself a favor and take a break from the game competitively. I can't tell you how great it feels to not have to be on a schedule for gaming. The ease of stress that it gives is something else and I beg you to try it at least for a season. It'll make casually playing games more enjoyable or at least it did for me.
Recognize your time constraints and work with them. Try to NEVER put games before work. It's a slippery slope and might happen from time to time but keep yourself in check. The goal for doing all this stuff is not to get you to play less but to ease your mind knowing that you can be well rested and less stressed in the long run.
You can add me to talk if you want.
Allow yourself to be sad, try to find EXACTLY why you are feeling like you are, Write down your thoughts every time you think off a factor that might be the problem. When you done this please read through everything and understand every single sentence and what it means to you.
After this you should setup a plan on how to remove these negative factors, step by step, It does not need to happen over a week, a month. Allow time because how corny it sounds its actually true that time heals all wounds as long as you identify the problem and find a solution to it. If you cant think of a solution you could ask your therapist, family, friends or someone you feel comfortable with so they can help you find a solution to it.
I would also advise trying to find out what your dreams are, it does not matter how big or small they are. Just setup goals that you want to achieve each week, month, year... It could be visiting the one country you always dreamed about, starting to exercise, learning to cook. Find something that makes you feel good, that will give you a satisfaction and joy of completing or achieving. No matter how stupid it sounds listening to motivational speeches also helps.
School can be very stressful and hard times but always remember that the bullies never succeed in life, you will look down at them with your degree. When you got a job and a steady, flashy income they will crawl into your DMs being all nice and believing that you forgot all the times they bullied you and you can just laugh at them and enjoy your life. This could work as a motivation to finish school with good grades and knowledge.
If TF2 with scrims and officials is making your life too stressfull i would advise stepping down for a while and just play it casually as backup or whenever you feel that you got the energy to play again.
Oh this was a lot more than i intended to type but i hope this will somehow help you.
Allow yourself to be sad, try to find EXACTLY why you are feeling like you are, Write down your thoughts every time you think off a factor that might be the problem. When you done this please read through everything and understand every single sentence and what it means to you.
After this you should setup a plan on how to remove these negative factors, step by step, It does not need to happen over a week, a month. Allow time because how corny it sounds its actually true that time heals all wounds as long as you identify the problem and find a solution to it. If you cant think of a solution you could ask your therapist, family, friends or someone you feel comfortable with so they can help you find a solution to it.
I would also advise trying to find out what your dreams are, it does not matter how big or small they are. Just setup goals that you want to achieve each week, month, year... It could be visiting the one country you always dreamed about, starting to exercise, learning to cook. Find something that makes you feel good, that will give you a satisfaction and joy of completing or achieving. No matter how stupid it sounds listening to motivational speeches also helps.
School can be very stressful and hard times but always remember that the bullies never succeed in life, you will look down at them with your degree. When you got a job and a steady, flashy income they will crawl into your DMs being all nice and believing that you forgot all the times they bullied you and you can just laugh at them and enjoy your life. This could work as a motivation to finish school with good grades and knowledge.
If TF2 with scrims and officials is making your life too stressfull i would advise stepping down for a while and just play it casually as backup or whenever you feel that you got the energy to play again.
Oh this was a lot more than i intended to type but i hope this will somehow help you.
blehI have had similar feelings in the past and can tell you right now that quitting tf2, or at least taking a break is the right step to go. Sleep is so important to mental health and I have felt a significant difference between an average 5 hours of sleep to 7-8 hours. Do yourself a favor and take a break from the game competitively. I can't tell you how great it feels to not have to be on a schedule for gaming. The ease of stress that it gives is something else and I beg you to try it at least for a season. It'll make casually playing games more enjoyable or at least it did for me.
Recognize your time constraints and work with them. Try to NEVER put games before work. It's a slippery slope and might happen from time to time but keep yourself in check. The goal for doing all this stuff is not to get you to play less but to ease your mind knowing that you can be well rested and less stressed in the long run.
You can add me to talk if you want.
I know what you're saying is correct, taking a break will help. The fact is, I have just started with competitive and found a team that is willing to take me in for an actual main spot. Also I don't want to let my team down. The season may have just started, but I believe we're #11 in Steel NA at the moment. I don't want to be dropped because I miss a few games. What I will try to do is prioritize some things over another in a way that may be beneficial.
[quote=bleh]I have had similar feelings in the past and can tell you right now that quitting tf2, or at least taking a break is the right step to go. Sleep is so important to mental health and I have felt a significant difference between an average 5 hours of sleep to 7-8 hours. Do yourself a favor and take a break from the game competitively. I can't tell you how great it feels to not have to be on a schedule for gaming. The ease of stress that it gives is something else and I beg you to try it at least for a season. It'll make casually playing games more enjoyable or at least it did for me.
Recognize your time constraints and work with them. Try to NEVER put games before work. It's a slippery slope and might happen from time to time but keep yourself in check. The goal for doing all this stuff is not to get you to play less but to ease your mind knowing that you can be well rested and less stressed in the long run.
You can add me to talk if you want.[/quote]
I know what you're saying is correct, taking a break will help. The fact is, I have just started with competitive and found a team that is willing to take me in for an actual main spot. Also I don't want to let my team down. The season may have just started, but I believe we're #11 in Steel NA at the moment. I don't want to be dropped because I miss a few games. What I will try to do is prioritize some things over another in a way that may be beneficial.
LuneAllow yourself to be sad, try to find EXACTLY why you are feeling like you are, Write down your thoughts every time you think off a factor that might be the problem. When you done this please read through everything and understand every single sentence and what it means to you.
After this you should setup a plan on how to remove these negative factors, step by step, It does not need to happen over a week, a month. Allow time because how corny it sounds its actually true that time heals all wounds as long as you identify the problem and find a solution to it. If you cant think of a solution you could ask your therapist, family, friends or someone you feel comfortable with so they can help you find a solution to it.
I would also advise trying to find out what your dreams are, it does not matter how big or small they are. Just setup goals that you want to achieve each week, month, year... It could be visiting the one country you always dreamed about, starting to exercise, learning to cook. Find something that makes you feel good, that will give you a satisfaction and joy of completing or achieving. No matter how stupid it sounds listening to motivational speeches also helps.
School can be very stressful and hard times but always remember that the bullies never succeed in life, you will look down at them with your degree. When you got a job and a steady, flashy income they will crawl into your DMs being all nice and believing that you forgot all the times they bullied you and you can just laugh at them and enjoy your life. This could work as a motivation to finish school with good grades and knowledge.
If TF2 with scrims and officials is making your life too stressfull i would advise stepping down for a while and just play it casually as backup or whenever you feel that you got the energy to play again.
Oh this was a lot more than i intended to type but i hope this will somehow help you.
Writing down how I feel is something I've been doing since middle school, though I usually wrote down how I felt then never looked back at what I wrote, knowing that those writings would remind me of the past and I will mourn over it again, which isn't the best option. So, without keeping this all to myself, I decided to write how I felt online and see the solutions other people can come up with before I fall into a bigger hole and end up doing something I can't go back from.
There are some things I aspire to do, of course, like many other people. But I have been so drowned in all of this classwork and shit afterwards, to the point where I only focus on what I am currently doing, to the point where I don't even think ahead to my future. It's something I do need to work on, thinking about my future. I do have many opportunities, now that I look at it. Getting there will be tough, though. Considering the state that I am in.
Bullies, it's hard to deal with them. Usually the system doesn't help if I report anything, knowing from past instances of bias within the teachers. Sigh. But, one thing I definitely don't do is forget. If somebody fucks me over like that, it's stuck in the back of my mind forever.
[quote=Lune]Allow yourself to be sad, try to find EXACTLY why you are feeling like you are, Write down your thoughts every time you think off a factor that might be the problem. When you done this please read through everything and understand every single sentence and what it means to you.
After this you should setup a plan on how to remove these negative factors, step by step, It does not need to happen over a week, a month. Allow time because how corny it sounds its actually true that time heals all wounds as long as you identify the problem and find a solution to it. If you cant think of a solution you could ask your therapist, family, friends or someone you feel comfortable with so they can help you find a solution to it.
I would also advise trying to find out what your dreams are, it does not matter how big or small they are. Just setup goals that you want to achieve each week, month, year... It could be visiting the one country you always dreamed about, starting to exercise, learning to cook. Find something that makes you feel good, that will give you a satisfaction and joy of completing or achieving. No matter how stupid it sounds listening to motivational speeches also helps.
School can be very stressful and hard times but always remember that the bullies never succeed in life, you will look down at them with your degree. When you got a job and a steady, flashy income they will crawl into your DMs being all nice and believing that you forgot all the times they bullied you and you can just laugh at them and enjoy your life. This could work as a motivation to finish school with good grades and knowledge.
If TF2 with scrims and officials is making your life too stressfull i would advise stepping down for a while and just play it casually as backup or whenever you feel that you got the energy to play again.
Oh this was a lot more than i intended to type but i hope this will somehow help you.[/quote]
Writing down how I feel is something I've been doing since middle school, though I usually wrote down how I felt then never looked back at what I wrote, knowing that those writings would remind me of the past and I will mourn over it again, which isn't the best option. So, without keeping this all to myself, I decided to write how I felt online and see the solutions other people can come up with before I fall into a bigger hole and end up doing something I can't go back from.
There are some things I aspire to do, of course, like many other people. But I have been so drowned in all of this classwork and shit afterwards, to the point where I only focus on what I am currently doing, to the point where I don't even think ahead to my future. It's something I do need to work on, thinking about my future. I do have many opportunities, now that I look at it. Getting there will be tough, though. Considering the state that I am in.
Bullies, it's hard to deal with them. Usually the system doesn't help if I report anything, knowing from past instances of bias within the teachers. Sigh. But, one thing I definitely don't do is forget. If somebody fucks me over like that, it's stuck in the back of my mind forever.
nykGym is the best thing that ever happened to my mental health
it's helping me a lot too. im not someone who's motivated enough to do (or at least start) that shit on my own so it took my uni paying for a personal trainer once a week to get me started, but I feel a decent amount better because i got the satisfaction of feeling like i'd accomplished something properly that day. other small stuff helps like making your bed each morning or getting clothes ready for the next day the night before, but it sounds like your problems are different to mine
[quote=nyk]Gym is the best thing that ever happened to my mental health[/quote]
it's helping me a lot too. im not someone who's motivated enough to do (or at least start) that shit on my own so it took my uni paying for a personal trainer once a week to get me started, but I feel a decent amount better because i got the satisfaction of feeling like i'd accomplished something properly that day. other small stuff helps like making your bed each morning or getting clothes ready for the next day the night before, but it sounds like your problems are different to mine
I am a sick man... I am a spiteful man. I am an unpleasant man. I think my liver is diseased. However, I don't know beans about my disease, and I am not sure what is bothering me. I don't treat it and never have, though I respect medicine and doctors. Besides, I am extremely superstitious, let's say sufficiently so to respect medicine. (I am educated enough not to be superstitious, but I am.) No, I refuse to treat it out of spite. You probably will not understand that. Well, but I understand it. Of course I can't explain to you just whom I am annoying in this case by my spite. I am perfectly well aware that I cannot "get even" with the doctors by not consulting them. I know better than anyone that I thereby injure only myself and no one else. But still, if I don't treat it, its is out of spite. My liver is bad, well then-- let it get even worse!
I am a sick man... I am a spiteful man. I am an unpleasant man. I think my liver is diseased. However, I don't know beans about my disease, and I am not sure what is bothering me. I don't treat it and never have, though I respect medicine and doctors. Besides, I am extremely superstitious, let's say sufficiently so to respect medicine. (I am educated enough not to be superstitious, but I am.) No, I refuse to treat it out of spite. You probably will not understand that. Well, but I understand it. Of course I can't explain to you just whom I am annoying in this case by my spite. I am perfectly well aware that I cannot "get even" with the doctors by not consulting them. I know better than anyone that I thereby injure only myself and no one else. But still, if I don't treat it, its is out of spite. My liver is bad, well then-- let it get even worse!
genotry excercising heavily and eating lots of leafy greens, if you feel better physically you will feel better mentally
also quit tf2 for a while
nykGym is the best thing that ever happened to my mental health
[quote=geno]try excercising heavily and eating lots of leafy greens, if you feel better physically you will feel better mentally
also quit tf2 for a while[/quote]
[quote=nyk]Gym is the best thing that ever happened to my mental health[/quote]
HashtagBasedbleh
I know what you're saying is correct, taking a break will help. The fact is, I have just started with competitive and found a team that is willing to take me in for an actual main spot. Also I don't want to let my team down. The season may have just started, but I believe we're #11 in Steel NA at the moment. I don't want to be dropped because I miss a few games. What I will try to do is prioritize some things over another in a way that may be beneficial.
Please prioritize yourself. Your team should understand what you're going through and allow you to at the very most backup for them or something. I know you don't want to step down from the team you just found but it is important for the long run of your mental health that you do so. What does being 11th in Steel really get you when you're not emotionally stable during or after it? Not much, I'd say. Talk to your team about it and if they really care about you, they won't be upset if you step down.
[quote=HashtagBased][quote=bleh][/quote]
I know what you're saying is correct, taking a break will help. The fact is, I have just started with competitive and found a team that is willing to take me in for an actual main spot. Also I don't want to let my team down. The season may have just started, but I believe we're #11 in Steel NA at the moment. I don't want to be dropped because I miss a few games. What I will try to do is prioritize some things over another in a way that may be beneficial.[/quote]
Please prioritize yourself. Your team should understand what you're going through and allow you to at the very most backup for them or something. I know you don't want to step down from the team you just found but it is important for the long run of your mental health that you do so. What does being 11th in Steel really get you when you're not emotionally stable during or after it? Not much, I'd say. Talk to your team about it and if they really care about you, they won't be upset if you step down.
I cut out 95% of sugar in my diet in an attempt to be more healthy. I would recommend it, it may seem extreme and unnecessary, but I definitely feel better for it. When I say sugar I'm mostly talking about processed/concentrated sugar, I still eat plenty of fruit. As far as depression goes I'm not an expert but from what I can tell, social activity is the best counter to it. Even just talking to people on this forum is a good start.
I cut out 95% of sugar in my diet in an attempt to be more healthy. I would recommend it, it may seem extreme and unnecessary, but I definitely feel better for it. When I say sugar I'm mostly talking about processed/concentrated sugar, I still eat plenty of fruit. As far as depression goes I'm not an expert but from what I can tell, social activity is the best counter to it. Even just talking to people on this forum is a good start.
Also with videogames, if it's clearly a problem in your life, then stop it. However, if you know that's not the problem, then quitting videogames could do more harm than good. Maybe if tf2 has lost some of its charm, then trying out other games couldn't hurt. Exactly what games to try depends on your own preferences, just look for games that interest you.
Also with videogames, if it's clearly a problem in your life, then stop it. However, if you know that's not the problem, then quitting videogames could do more harm than good. Maybe if tf2 has lost some of its charm, then trying out other games couldn't hurt. Exactly what games to try depends on your own preferences, just look for games that interest you.
LuneSchool can be very stressful and hard times but always remember that the bullies never succeed in life, you will look down at them with your degree. When you got a job and a steady, flashy income they will crawl into your DMs being all nice and believing that you forgot all the times they bullied you and you can just laugh at them and enjoy your life. This could work as a motivation to finish school with good grades and knowledge.
I know you're trying to cheer up and give good advice to Hash, It's just you shouldn't equate a college degree= financial success and money. And there are people who had to move in with their parents after college cause they couldn't find a job, or there unemployed and the current market is deflating or there's no market demand for their work. Noir should you equate steady flashy income= happiness, you could totally be fucking stressed out and overworked with the current work that you're doing for shit pay, mistreated and bullied by your boss or co workers and not even be within your major. Think it's important to not get fucking antsy and crazy over grades, and try to pass or excel if you're really into academic work and enjoy doing school and be there in college, cause you want to. Just my two cents.
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School can be very stressful and hard times but always remember that the bullies never succeed in life, you will look down at them with your degree. When you got a job and a steady, flashy income they will crawl into your DMs being all nice and believing that you forgot all the times they bullied you and you can just laugh at them and enjoy your life. This could work as a motivation to finish school with good grades and knowledge.
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I know you're trying to cheer up and give good advice to Hash, It's just you shouldn't equate a college degree= financial success and money. And there are people who had to move in with their parents after college cause they couldn't find a job, or there unemployed and the current market is deflating or there's no market demand for their work. Noir should you equate steady flashy income= happiness, you could totally be fucking stressed out and overworked with the current work that you're doing for shit pay, mistreated and bullied by your boss or co workers and not even be within your major. Think it's important to not get fucking antsy and crazy over grades, and try to pass or excel if you're really into academic work and enjoy doing school and be there in college, cause you want to. Just my two cents.