Absolutely get help, regardless of how you feel people care about you. I lost multiple friends this summer and I always wish that I would've known and been able to tell them how much I care. Stay safe, and if you need to talk we're all here for you.

no this is not normal and you should try to see your doctor if you can

remember that it may take time to find a treatment which works for you, but one of them will

you're not really going to get anything out of this thread
people who do not understand your situation whatsoever will tell you stuff like it gets better and other meaningless advice like that
you should 100% go to your uni's psychiatric services instead

it is not "normal" at all. You should seek out for help and tell people like your parents(since you mentioned them). i struggle with depression as well, and it used to be very very bad, it does have its moments on and off. but trust me it does get better. just stay strong dude.

get help, open up, talk to your parents or anyone in the position to help you out.

opening up is probably the most important part of recovering because it will open up so many windows for you to seek and get help

idk how old you are but ill assume you're still pretty young cause most people who play tf2 are, and if thats the case the sooner you get help the better, it's really easy to get lost in your depression, and no one will know how to help you unless you say something

i know exactly what you're going through, add me if you want. i can talk to you any time you need it

this is how i feel lets be friends

Add me if you want to talk

you're not depressed

you don't want to kill yourself.

you're just tired of taking responsibility and need to find a new goal to achieve. You might feel trapped, but the only way to break free is to tell your parents about your school situation and reach a consensus, the sooner the better.

therapist alert

If you go to university, there is a strong chance there is a counseling and psychiatric service available to you. Have you thought about going there? From the small amount you wrote, it seems like it would be worth a shot.

Also, many students struggle with low GPAs, and posting on a forum that you frequent is very common. People like to open up where they feel comfortable. Of course, you may need to make that leap into telling people who have more power to help you even if it is uncomfortable, and chances are it will never be comfortable to tell people this.

sound the alarm, someone's trying to help him.

I've just been in a similar situation and I gave him advice that may just work. His GPA and friends/family still hold weight.

i know ur trying to help but ive been told those things and hearing "youre not depressed" when all u do is sit in ur room and rot kinda sucks to hear.

did you read the post?

Do you have an outlet for boredom? Something truly exhilarating --not like TF2.

I never seriously considered suicide because i forbid myself from ever doing it when i was really small. But the most important arguement imo is that with any religion or belief, afterlife is going to suck.

what if ur atheist

Similar != his situation.

I have also been in a similar situation, and if someone at that point in time came and told me "You are not actually depressed" even though I ended up getting a clinical diagnosis, I would have told them to fuck off. Because guess what, he might actually be depressed, and he also might have a bottle of bleach right next to him, you dont know. So how about you stop assuming his situation and tell him to get help from a professional instead of some random internet forum? That would be much more helpful, because you dont fuck around with mental stuff like this.

you don't get clinical diagnosis on tf forums, but fair enough, I could be completely wrong or you could be blowing things out of proportion insteading of solving the root problem. That's why seeking help's always the best thing and anti depressants aren't that bad if they help you climb out of a bad situation.

Not existing sounds worse than hell to me.

find some good friends and expand your relationships with them
take care of your hygiene and take a breather maybe watch some tv

think of things you can do with your friends

I usually smoke weed with my friends and we enjoy each other's company

also talk to a doctor, don't be afraid to take medicine if it'll make you feel better

if you're charismatic at all try to make something happen with a love interest

I would def. see a professional and talk to them about the situation - feeling miserable all of the time isn't going to make anything better.

Just as somebody who is quite a lot older and survived college, a *lot* of people go through what you're going through - perhaps it's something you'll have to struggle with permanently, and perhaps it's only temporary, a lot of people who go to university end up feeling completely overwhelmed and thus shut down unable to make decisions or act in any meaningful way. It's a big and scary change - especially looking into the post-academic future. That alone is enough to terrify plenty of people and I don't fault them for it.

The only advice I can offer beyond the top suggestion of checking out your counseling options, is just try to avoid making any hasty decisions for the next few months. I saw a lot of people in situations similar to yours do all sorts of strange things to try to escape their situation, from joining the army randomly, moving to the mountains in India, to just sitting in their dorm and refusing to go to class for an entire semester and slaughtering their GPA and academic record while paying for the privilege to do so. It might get you out of an uncomfortable situation, but it won't fix the underlying problem.

Finding someone to talk to and have them listen about your situation is a fantastic start. As hayes had said, there's likely some type of resource if you're going to university that can help you deal with these kinds of things.

Personally, I've found that spending time with my roommate's dog can help comfort me when I'm feeling down. I wish I could spend more time with him but it is what it is. If you know of a friend that has some kind of pet that you can play with for a little bit, there's certainly a chance that you'll be able to feel at least a little bit better.

But above all, do not take your own life. There's so much more to look forward to, even if in the short term things do look bleak. I've got 3 exams that I need to do well on to get my GPA up for the end of the semester as well, so I understand at least a little bit of the pressure that you're facing. It's not fun. Anyone that's been in a similar spot knows that. But with the right amount of help, things can get better.

Dude finding a hobby that I crave doing is what got me out of a hole.
Mine is lifting in the gym and hiking.
Yours could be whatever you're drawn to. Art, gaming, fitness, graphic designing, knitting, fishing, cooking... could be anything man!
I can tell you are considerate of others' feelings, so maybe get into donating your time with special needs kids? Or help coach a sport you're into? Helping other people definitely makes you feel better.
Get at least a 45-1 hour walk a day in, if not more. and find a hobby. It changes you. Also your diet should not be shit.
You'll be good if you find something that you love doing everyday, believe.
Best of luck bud

just remember that whatever bad thing you're going through wont last long, itll eventually pass and later on youll look back on it and laugh.. as for serious depression try to realize the point in time where you feel like theres nothing but negativity constantly running through your mind and replace those thoughts with positive ones. try focusing on your hobbies. if the things you like start to look drab try doing them with some else. try new things and never be afraid to talk to someone. you are not alone :) feel better boyo

thank you all for replying, it really helped :)
we're an amazing community

it took me a really long time to get diagnosed officially but it has all been for the better. therapy has been a dramatic help in my day to day life, but it took a lot of trial and error to find the right person. all worth it.

I had the same thing in college. I sat in my room all day, would go days without eating because I couldn't be bothered, and slept for 16+ hours a day. Kept thinking I was lazy, and I was sabotaging my future by skipping lectures and not doing assignments. I struggled with it all through college and kept telling myself "oh it'll get better when I graduate because the stress will be gone"... I stayed home all day and did nothing and it was just this bleak, static-y stretch of existence. Eventually I went and saw a doctor and got diagnosed with severe clinical depression. I've been getting treatment for it for the past few years.

On top of all of the other good advice (talk to your parents, consider the root of your feelings, etc) what really helps with depression is having goals. A lot of the time you just feel like you're stuck in a cycle of something that doesn't end and doesn't change; it leaves you unfulfilled and unhappy and makes you feel like you have no control over your life. So consider setting a few goals accomplishing which would make you happy. They don't have to be HUGE GOALS (in fact, don't make them huge goals). They can be anything as small as "every day for 15 minutes, I will walk around my neighbourhood/lie in bed/finger-paint and listen to my favourite songs". It seems trivial but you will feel like a champion every time you do it; and you will find tons, and TONS of reasons not to do them. Be kind to yourself; be honest about why you didn't do it - don't do this thing of where you make yourself feel guilty to punish yourself for not doing something. Just be like, "I am engaging in an act of self-sabotage, and this time I succeeded - but tomorrow I will make sure to set the time aside in the evening to listen to music". And then, well. Do it. Stop thinking about it. Either do it, or don't, don't waste an hour thinking about your daily 20-minute goal. When you start getting into the routine of meeting your tiny goals you will feel so much better because you'll feel like there's at least one small portion of your life that you have full control over, like a little sanctuary of happiness; and from there, it's "just" slowly inching your way back up.

In conjunction to that, consider taking a semester off. Don't take it off just so you can sit in your room some more and go even more insane. Find an internship, or a part-time job, or even a volunteer position that you either enjoy or are interested in. Having a job puts a responsibility on you that YOU chose to uptake (you may have "chosen" to go to college but let's be real, for a lot of us its not exactly a choice), changes up the scenery a bit, and makes you feel like, again, you have more control over what you do in your life. It can also be very valuable for your future by providing you with an insight of what you might want to do after college (again, giving yourself a goal!) or even by just making you realize that you never want to do anything with that job again.

thank you so much for the advice, i'm starting to realize i'm not the only lne going thru this, i'm definitely seeking help